At 4:55 AM on
Friday, April 30, 2004
Music ::Lady by Mojo::
Look at the amount of energy exuding from her!
Ahhh... holding a can of Season's Lemon Tea in my left hand and typing away at this entry using just my right hand.. I applaud myself... =) Hee Hee. Kidding. The lemon tea is on my table. Had my second paper today. CD 1.3. An ok paper. Then went to collect some of my projects. Had a look at my grades. They were also ok. Damn. When is it gonna be good, manz? Anyway, the day left me really tired. Went to Jelita just now... went into Video EZ for the first time... they had really updated vcds that can be borrowed for like oni 5 bux per week... BUT.. there was no Havana Nights! Imagine my dismay then. My heart fell flat on the blue carpeted floor. Maybe they have not put the movie into vcd yet. Still... *sad*.
Music ::Guajira (I love you too much) by Yerba Buena::
I realised that these days, I have been doing a lot of bag-watching. Not that I am planning or going to buy any new bags... but I realised the number of common and of course, branded bags people are carrying around these days... like some status symbols... Shalt not mention thee names of the brands.. or I may get sued. -_- << Haha. One stupid emoticon. Okie, back to the bag issue. Okie, the real branded bags are nice... but some people do not want to feel left out of the branded yet common bag world that they resort to buying imitation ones.. sadly, they just buy without trying their best to choose those that are like, at least, pass-able looking.. I have seen those AAA imitation bags that are really close to the real ones.. It was so hard to tell whether it was really fake. But these days I keep bumping into those people bags that were like obviously fake. For instance, there was this woman who was carrying a real LV* (yeah, so I contradicted myself) bag and there was this woman who was not carrying the real one. They were actually standing next to each other in the train and I had fun comparing the two bags. Hee Hee. =)
Music ::El Estuche by Arteciopelados::
Puke all you want Ed, he is back!!! With a vengeance!!
As Jean Piaget had said, children in the intuitive substage (the 4-7 yrs old) begins to be more interested in logical reasoning, thus implying the increment of their intellectual curiosity... such "happenings" take place in all of us through out Life. I was on the way home and I was bored. There, I recalled a quote that went "Rules are meant to be broken". Although I hate to think, but I was forced to, since I was bored and the idea just sat there in the middle of my brain waiting for me to process it. What exactly does the "rules" in this quote mean? Does it mean that people who break the rules are trying to be creative? One possible definitions of creativity is the characteristic of being uninhibited.. meaning not following the rules. But is breaking the LAW is being creative too? Since, being creative is to get out of the same-ness of things. So, prisoners are also technically creative. Well, then if rules are meant to be broken, then why have any in the first place? Or are the rules just for show? Damn, I hate the quote. It makes me think.Right? Cheerios. (",)
Note ::I think, therefore I am:: Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:11 AM on
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Music ::Dirty Dancing by Black Eyed Peas::
It is past midnight and I am bored right out of my denim skirt... Waiting for a sign from Prince Charming but til now, nothing worthy of putting me to an assuring slumber.. Maybe his horse carriage got stuck in the mud as it was raining heavily just now.. Or maybe the horses were too tired? It was prickling hot before the rain.. Maybe they are down with fever too~ So I Found a quiz on Edwina's blog...
Alyssa. *Frowns* Sounds Charmed-ing.. eh? But I can live with that name~
Note ::Sighs..::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:01 AM on
Music ::Satellite (Spanish version) by Santana feat Jorge Moreno::
Jessica Alba...again. From the same movie... again.
The best part of today is the rain. It had been very hot for the past few days... weeks! I dont even know whether to call it rain.. it was more like pouring... even my shower dont work that well. I bathed in the rain today.. and I actually realised how selfish Singaporeans are, so much for their so called courtesy campaigns.. their high standard of living, but low standard of conscience and morality. Learn from Lawrence Kohlberg!!
This is the man who came up with the morality issues. I do find his theory biased towards the male species though. For instance, he tested his dilemma questions on boys aged 10-16... boys. What is the point, Lawrence?
Anyway, back to the rain issue... I was standing at various traffic light junctions and I was the only one at every one of them without an umbrella to shelter me. Remember, it was not only raining, it was pouring. Dont these people have any courtesy to offer me shelter? Compared to Singaporeans, the Westerners whom we have often despised, gossiped and so on... they are much more conscientous. I remember once when I was on the way back to my workplace from a food centre.. it was pouring. There were no shelters. And I could not afford to wait out the rain. My lunchtime was over. As I was waiting for the green walking man to start to blink, I covered my head with my tiny palm. Then suddenly I felt as though I was overshadowed. There was this "ang moh" guy who was obviously backpacking in our tiny island (for what, I dont know) sheltering me. I smiled, and said that it was ok. But he said that he had no problem sharing his umbrella coz the umbrella was big enough to shelter 3 people. At the same time, there were two or three other Singaporeans who were just staring at us. They had huge umbrellas too. But their hearts were obviously small! sighs*
Anyway, today was my first paper. PPCM. It was ok-ok. Trust Corina to come up with such a paper...
Note ::Was greatly seduced on two days ago...:: Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:07 AM on
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Music ::Going Under by Evanescence::
Hee Hee. Okie, just to avoid getting those yawns over Diego Luna Alexander, allow me to ease those eye pains by putting this Jessica Alba picture. Here, she is dancing, in one of her scenes in the Honey movie. Yet another dance movie. =)
12.10am. Logically and technically it is already the 28th of April 2004... and it is considered a whole new day altogether, which means I am blogging on an entirely new and clean day... except that I am too early. =) Hee Hee. (What a stupid laugh, me*... **slaps myself**) Okie. If anyone... anyone who reads this entry, wonders why I am behaving in such an odd fashion, as if I have just eaten a box of chocolates*, then... I have no reason or explanation to offer. Getting more confused now? Good. That was my entire point. Hee Hee. ^_^ **slaps myself again**
Yesterday... which, like, is like, over like, since like, 10 minutes ago... I made a short trip to Borders in Orchard Road, like, to search, like, for the Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights VCD... which is, like, so not, like available. I was like, "What the heck? Isnt this supposed to be like THE store?" **slaps myself yet again** Disappointments put aside, I carried on unwinding my wounded brain reading magazines with very funny (not the haha kind, its the *unmentionable* kind) titles on the covers.
Manz, I really cannot fall asleep. Suddenly, it is so boring to sleep. I mean, I do not wake up to fall asleep again right? Might as well fill up my nights with more meaningful activities. =)
Hrmz Hrmz... Okie. I shall fill up this entry more when the day is about to be over okie. Meanwhile, I apologise if anyone's brains trip over themselves reading this mindless entry. Hee Hee. **Boxes myself**
Note ::I read in a magazine article and found a line that I would like to quote, just for you guys to ponder over. Here goes... "It is much more lonelier to be with someone who isnt compatible with you, than being single on your own." How? Can relate?::
Cheerios,
Anna D.
(",) Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:03 PM on
Monday, April 26, 2004
Music ::Taking Over Me by Evanescence::
I think I know why I find this guy really fascinating.. He looks so normal.. and he has a bit of the malay mat look.. haha.. I guess coz Mexicans have the same sort of skin tone...
Today...
I got home at about 8am this morning.. When I was on the way home, in my neighbourhood, my neighbours look shocked as they stared at me. I must have looked as if I got home from clubbing.. Well.. my face is pale.. I didnt have any make-up or powder on.. and my hair, was in a heck-care condition.. and I obviously looked exhausted, just like how I am feeling right now... so, I can sort of understand their fascination with me. After all, it did give them yet another reason to gossip. =) Have fun gossiping, ladies!~
Yesterday...
I had Belinda's dance... A nice way to waste my time... =) People obviously have other things in mind other than the dance, so the quality of the dance is not as how good as how it is supposed to be.. Oh well. Anyway, I am increasingly amazed by how selfish, self-centred, not to mention egoistic people can be. There are actually people out there who thinks that they should be placed on a pedestal and people should kneel down and worship them!!! I was so shocked that I felt disguisted. I think it was more disguist than shock... There I was tolerating one shock after another.. and here comes another.. and then another.. By the time the month ends, I will be one electrocuted girl.
Note ::Meeting Destiny...:: Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:13 PM on
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Music ::Pretty Woman by Roy Orbison::
Pretty woman so early in the morning! I am so straight, ok!~ =) I am using this song for my dance. It is so cute. The movie was also cute.. especially the way the guy went back for the girl and protected her from harm.. and especially the way HE lets HER go shopping!!! =) Haha. Have you guys ever seen Roy Orbison? He is so.... cute.. in a way that you can never imagine such a guy to be trying to woo a pretty woman with a Pretty Woman song, although he may be the celebrity back then.
See? Cute right? (",) Okie.. Maybe Im being too much.. This is him.. old..
This is him... young. Better? =)
On another note.. I think I am going insane.. The only thing that is keeping me sane is the exams.. I have been seeing the people that hurt me everywhere I go.. In my mind.. that is like most of the day.. they are just sitting there in my head! And worst, they also appear in my dreams! Where have all the sweet dreams gone? I need at least one~ But every night, it's always about those people.. and in those dreams, they are also hurting me.. Sadly, I cannot even bring myself to do anything in the dreams.. Last night, I dreamt that people kept forcing me to take up the dangerous role in every competition.. music or whatever.. I nearly died in each of them.. and they stood there watching me almost die, although I was like screaming "Help!Help Me!" In every dream.. The same one person is there.. And when he saw me suffer, I saw him flinch and he wanted to help but each time, he was held back.. He couldnt help no matter how much he wanted to.. and suddenly he just disappeared.. Why??? I get hurt in and out of my dreams.. Hahaha.. =X
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:16 AM on
Music ::Dirty Dancing by Black Eyed Peas::
What Pattern Are You?
For some reason, the quiz results make me feel punk. And that is not bad. Which reminds me.. something happened yesterday that made me realize that punk hair dos are actually really cool. Well, my friend is in some hair modelling thing.. and there are like 3 categories.. one of them is the urban category that specializes in this kind of styles for hair. I saw the photos and I am so blown away, manz~ Although the secret affairs category was sexy, as appropriate.. but the impact was not that great. After all, I guess punk styles attract more attention these days.. =) Sadly, that style will not work out well for me.. It just is not me.. But I am glad for the models who were chosen for that category.. they are great! You go, girls! *claps hands*
Note ::I sure am enjoying playing around with the bold button eh?:: Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:31 PM on
Friday, April 23, 2004
Music ::Going Under by Evanescence::
Now, I only want to see you cry...
It is early morning, the day has not passed yet. Still, I dont know why I am blogging away right now. The shock that I have been receiving since the past week continues to shock me and ramming its icicle-like truths into my already damaged heart. Blame me for being sentimental. But I cannot yet even put into words, the hurt that I have received. I feel so silly. I cannot even believe how kind I have been to always put faith in people who dont deserve it at all. Because of this kindness and sincerity.. I dont get anything in return. It's not like I expect anything, but at least, be human and have some sense? *sighs* Apart from this, I am increasingly amazed at how selfish people can get.. It is so.. unbelievable. and sickening.. =X
Note ::Thanks for telling me that I have only wasted away what I could have used as my saving catch.. and my time::
Note II :: You saw me mourning!!! Why the **** couldnt you do anything?!
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:50 AM on
Music ::Chasing Rainbows by Shed Seven::
What I want people to understand for the time being is that.. whoever I am right now.. please just let me be.. This is just the way I handle my unhappiness.. by creating this barrier of false pretences around me.. I am going through one of the most extremely painful journeys in my Life.. I dont expect you to understand, but do not criticize.. I am beginning to lose my self-control.. I have had enough. Enough said.. If I hear that again, I will scream!
For y-o-u...
you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...
i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then
i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over
i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
Note :: The fire has burnt...
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:27 AM on
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Music ::Goodbye by Air Supply::
I miss him.
I miss him.
I miss him.
I miss him.
I miss him.
It hurts to know he does not miss me.
It hurts to know he does not miss me.
It hurts to know he does not miss me.
It hurts to know he does not miss me.
It hurts to know he does not miss me.
It hurts.
.................. what was I doing? Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:20 AM on
Music ::Can I Walk By? by Jazze Pha feat. Monica::
A scene from the Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights.. If im not mistaken, the song that they are dancing to here is Do you only wanna dance? by Mya. Another sexy song~ Sigh. Romola Garai is so.... lucky. =)
Today is a really weird day. Nothing weird physically happened,actually.
I dont know if it is just me or I keep sensing the flow of emotions of
the people around me, and most of the time, it really gives me the creeps.
Because sometimes feeling so much of emotions can be rather detrimental. Especially to me.. knowing me.
The best part is, I see but others dont.. so sometimes they dont know and they keep denying. Oh well. Maybe next time, I shouldnt bother. But I have seen the effect of not bothering.. =X Anyway, it is so nice of Belinda to let us go early today. Like 2 and a half hrs early! For a 4 hr lesson, this sure is a blessing. =) Okie.. me going to catch up on my sleep. Dont think I will be blogging much tonight.. you people dont read anyway. Haha.. ~ Okay! Okay! Kidding! *claps hands*
Note :: In order to climb over the mountain to the other side of the mountain, you must, climb over the mountain. =)
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:25 AM on
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Music ::Chasing Rainbows by Shed Seven::
This song is dedicated to you..
You know who you are..
There are things that I regret
Like being called a nervous wreck
And working up another sweat for you
There’s nothing that I can do
For counterparts and bleeding hearts
And all the things that fall apart for you
I don’t keep my secrets there
I hide them everywhere
I could deny
But I’ll never realise
I’m just chasing rainbows
All the time
I could deny
But I’ll never realise
I’ve been chasing rainbows
All my life
And then I missed my cue
Everybody had a laugh
And then went for an early bath
Did you
I don’t keep my secrets there
I hide them everywhere
P.S:: I am not gone, I have only turned invisible for the time being. =) Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:28 AM on
Music ::Goodbye by Air Supply::
Just look at him perspire! Oh mannnnzz... =)
Today is a rather interesting day.. and unbelievably a social one. Today is the last day of my field practicum. The teachers at the centre were much more perkier and chatty today. I will really be missing them. Coz, we have really grown quite close to each other. We can really joke, man! It's not those sort of polite jokes you make to break the ice with the other person or to create a lighthearted atmosphere between the both of you. The teachers are like real friends who really laugh along with me. We make stupid jokes. They make me feel like I am at a place with my bunch of friends more than at a centre with.. teachers. The kids too, were a bit more manja today.. Hehe =)
Before leaving the class, I gave Nana a kiss.. coz she is so adorably adorable and cutely cute! Like a baby in the pampers advertisement, except that shes much more cuter. Then the other kids saw, so they gave me hugs, I collapsed under them. The funny thing was that, Nana had to back off coz of her small size... so she waited til all the children go away, then she came and gave me a hug. =) It was at that time, that a bit of my hurt went away.. It's like, their pure innocent hugs really sheltered my numb heart for that few minutes.. Then, I said my goodbyes to the teachers, exchanged numbers.. laughed a bit.. then I went to class.. Was actually late, but surprised that I wasnt coz.. many people took even much more sweeter time on their own.. haha~
I am listening to this old song by Air Supply.. because lately, I have been going through more goodbyes in a few days in a row, than advisable for a tender heart like mine..
Oh well. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:24 AM on
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Music ::Satellite by Santana feat. Jorge Moreno::
It is very odd how, when you are feeling really down, every sad song you come across on the Net or on the radio, seems to relate to you.. I would like to dedicate the song Stop crying out loud by Oasis to.. myself. Haha. Journey to school is one of the most painful journeys I know.. it's like a 3 laps kind of journey, with interchanges.. I get tired just going to school and coming back.. Haha. Anyway, thats not important. I usually get bored on long journeys that at times, I feel that it wld be good if I can blog away. A mobile blog would be fantastique. Then, I thought.. that is a really bad idea. Coz if there is a mobile blog that I can carry around everywhere I go, I will be typing close to research paper lengths per day, and I dont want to end up being my own author of my own Life book. But then again, hey. That is a pretty interesting idea. A very detailed way to look back on your Life. Today's classes are very short and sweet. I guess it is because it is the last week of school after all.. =) but panic! Exams are like 9 [n-i-n-e] days away!!! EEKS!
Note: Meanwhile, enjoy another picture of Diego Luna Alexander. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:25 AM on
Monday, April 19, 2004
Music ::Chasing Rainbows by Shed Seven::
Haha.. another picture of Diego! Hehe. Nobody is allowed to puke or get sick ok! This is my blog. Mine.
Anyway.. I found this prose in an old friend's logbook of poems and prose.. Just felt like sharing it..
You spread light to the parts of my Dark Life (and then u break my heart)
You livened hope where it had been long dead (and then u break my heart)
You sparked off joy in my cemetery of laughter (and then u break my heart)
You breathe words of Life into my lifeless body (and then u break my heart)
You carved a smile on my otherwise pale face (and then u break my heart)
You broke my heart (and you light up)
You broke my heart (and you were alive)
You broke my heart (and you were happy)
You broke my heart (and you took away my life)
You broke this fragile heart of mine,
Which I made strong to stand against the harsh
storms of Life,
The routine pains that exist in the wild realms,
Yet you broke my heart.
You are cruel.
Harsh eh, zee prose? Relate-able? What a love.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:22 AM on
Music ::Represent,Cuba by Orishas feat. Heather Headly::
This is the man! the man! the man! Hahaha...
Been a long time since I actually like favour an actor from the acting world.. hehe. If you have been wondering why his name is like appearing all over my blog.. well let me introduce you to the man himself.
Diego Luna Alexander
He is not fantastically handsome.
He is not hunky.
He is not tall.
He is not the typical gushing actor you know.
But he is one heck of an honest guy.
And he is true to what he loves- acting.
He had gone through a whole load of trouble for it.
And here he is, finally exposed to the world.
I guess, when you really love something, you go all out for it.
That's true love!
Personally, I find that truly admirable. =)
He cheers me up with his dance moves and songs these days.
Yeah, you guessed it right. I am in depression. Gotta admit that. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:31 AM on
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Music ::Stop crying out loud by Oasis::
Haha.. I cannot seem to fall asleep.. It is already 2.32am and it feels like 9pm still, for me.. Was going through the list of thousands of songs in my computer(ahem ahem).. heard Travis' "Why does it always rain on me?". The song kinda suit my situation right now.. Feeling very down.. and everyone telling me that it is all right.. but then again, why cant I fall asleep then? So Im gonna just post up the lyrics to the song here.. It is stuck on my head now.. I hope to see better days though.. =)
Why does it always rain on me?
by Travis
I can’t sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything’s alright
Still I can’t close my eyes
I’m seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can’t avoid the lightning
I can’t stand myself
I’m being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can’t avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It’s so cold
I can’t sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything’s alright
Still I can’t close my eyes
I’m seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can’t avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It’s so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:31 AM on
Music ::Dance Like This by Wyclef Jean featuring Claudette::
Cut it out. I do not need a celebration for the opening of this new blog. Haha~ Coz I have already had several but all were made private. Of course.. I decided to have a public one.. just for the fun of it. After all, God gave me all the time in the world to do this. =) A few more days to the start of the exams. Shivers all over me.. and projects.. argh. Horrors of horrors.
Okies, to avoid controversies over my sexuality..
I chose this skin because..
1) I have every right to choose whatever I want to
2) In my opinion, the skin is vogue
3) I am hoping to project the sense of independence and freedom through the "girls kissing" picture. After all, they did not feel restrained to kiss. So I dont wish to be restrained to live my Life either. I am not touching the topic of sexuality here. =) Just freedom.
The best part about this skin is the picture doesnt move no matter how long you have to scroll down. Haha. So, learn to not get irritated by it. And as this is a new blog, maybe I should establish the rule that "Dont like?Please leave before you get further offended".. I have been reading through many blogs and I am surprised how many people out there who fight for freedom of speech but stops others from typing away their opinions. But dont worry, I will not be nasty in here. =)
Note: Judging from the long entry.. do you believe me now when I said that I am not new to the blogging world? Hee hee.. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
