At 7:59 PM on
Sunday, October 31, 2004
The moment her eyes open,
the world sits up in amazement,
for her dark thick lashes flutter to shield her
from the evils of the universe,
Her high cheekbones ride high like
winds into the skies,
Rosy as though it is permanently blushing,
Her smiles as curvy as herself,
Generous like the way she breathes.
Her soft gaze can melt away evil,
Where her cold hard stare terrorizes those
who incurred her wrath
Yet her enemies mesmerized by that very stare,
Long to be near her,
To be loved by her.
Her long hair is like a bejewelled crown that
sits upon her head,
Shiny, glossy yet soft and never fail
to keep those who watch it, enraptured.
Like silk,
her fair dewy skin is the craze of many,
One wonders how she gets through the harsh weathers
As though even the Sun don't dare to touch her
For fear it may charr what seems to be so beautiful
She walks with the grace of a dancer,
Her lithe body light as the wind,
Yet firm and steady her feet keeps her on the ground.
Every movement she makes,
the men stare in wonder
and the women..
they burn in envy.
Full purer beauty radiates from within her,
As she catches her loved ones from falling,
and her claws sharpened to scar those
who had hurt the ones she cherish most.
When one is with her,
one feels as though one is in the middle
of a fully blossomed garden,
where all the four seasons of the world
take place simultaneously
The snow is like her coldness
that melts away
with the summer's heat
and when autumn comes
her love is bestowed and one feels
Oh so blessed.
Yet like a porcerlain figure,
She yearns to be protected.
And I will be the one.
I will be there if she falls.
I will protect her.
For she's mine.
Til the day she has to go,
she is mine.
Mine.
*smiles*
Quote: "How do you know all the things I want to say?" [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:20 PM on
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Bad boys are.. well.. nasty.
Bored of the ability to connect to the rest of the world at the click of a button, I decided to rummage through my games cupboard. Found my Final Fantasy VII.. the best of the series despite its mediocre-ness in terms of graphics. Well, it was made years ago. But compared to the rest of the series, this has the best storyline, and makes most sense without driving you mad. And the best soundtracks. Well, so this means, I will be replaying the whole game. Again. For the.. umpteenth time. But this time, I got Gameshark. Haha. =P
Did the dirty.. deed.
Ahh.. yes. Did manual labor. Toilet cleaning. Not that it was damn dirty, but I have always had this touchy feely reaction to it. *grimaced* Haha~. So.. uhh.. scrubbed.. cleaned.. scrubbed.. wiped.. phewww... Sparkling clean now. Thanks to yours truly. Me. =)
Me and my girlfriends.
I realised that sometimes the best thing to do is to just shut up. It is much better to have no opinions than to have an opinion that can hurt people. I had a sort-of argument with an old time friend. I don't know. I respected her decisions, but I also couldnt help missing her. Oh well.
These past few days have proved to me that, apart from family, my girlfriends are sometimes all that I need to have a good day. Anyway, I am sorry too, dear friend, if I hurt you by telling you what I see. I clearly understand what you wish to do, though it may appear the otherwise.
Afterwhich.
If I disappear for a while, you guys should kinda know where I have been. =)
Especially if my expedition to scour for *ahem-ahem* with Eddy on Monday goes well.
Oh.. and did I mention that Stephen K. might be keeping me all curled up in bed?
Ahhh.. now this is what I call.. understated pleasure.
-hugs & kisses-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:10 PM on
Thursday, October 28, 2004
The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)I
f u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;I
f u do he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (Bullshit)
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u TELL this to guys, they will swear that it's not true, but if u don't, they say u are selfish.....
Why waste time? =)
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:27 PM on
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
And right on schedule, it comes.
One of the blessings, and at the same time,
perils of being a woman.
One week off.
Pass me a bottle of coke, please*.
And yes, Eddy.
It is popcorn and movie time. =)
And Ramly burgers.
Quote: "Every word is treated like a crime in a courtroom." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:30 PM on
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Love is a bunch of crap.
So are crushes.
So are little pleasurable delights
that come with the
momentary high.
Fuck Love.
My judgement stands til the End.
'Nuff said.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:26 PM on
Monday, October 25, 2004
Enjoy the numbness while it lasts, folks.
Quote: "Him that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me."
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:30 PM on
What a happy happy day again!
Birthdays!
Birthdays are a joy to celebrate!
They mark an entire year of accomplishment.
No need for huge fireworks and all..
But it's not something to be forgotten..
It also marks the day that God
decided to bring you out to face Earth..
I want to be homeward bound..
But.. not now..
I won't be able to taste its full glory..
Quote: "I love how you can tell." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:07 PM on
Sunday, October 24, 2004
One of the happiest moments in Life is
when you spent it with your best friends.
And that was what I did a few hours ago.
How I love them so much. =)
Pity Linn wasnt there.
Or the happiness would be so much more
completely solid.
Good company is all
you need
to make your day..
Just sitting quietly
sipping coffee or
enjoying a simple meal..
Or cracking jokes with
your siblings
& parents..
So why the need for a stranger
Who will come and go
anyway?
Quote: "When Shakespeare said the world is a stage and we are its actors, I didnt think he meant it literally." [edited] =P
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:45 PM on
Ahah!!!
Sunday the 24th alas!
Happy day!
Happy happy day! =)
I think I'm beginning to
like sleeping...
I can't wait for that day now..
Where I will be homeward bound.
Quote: "Forgive your enemies but remember their names." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:21 PM on
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Spicy food. I love spicy food that brings out the pinkiness in my cheeks, the redness in my lips, dabs of tears in my eyes, and can make me stop talking for the moment! More chilli please!!~
"What's up?"- I cannot stand these two words. I cannot. I just cannot. I hate these two words, just like how I hate Love. I cannot tolerate the mere existence of these two words. When you call on someone, through sms, msn or phone call, and the next thing after hello, they ask you, "So. What's up?" These two words are supposed to be the symbols of cool conversation, are they? Well. They are not! They are horrible and rude! Horrifyingly so! Repulsively vomit-inducingly so!! Whenever someone use that on me, I feel as though I owe her/him a few million dollars. Or, I am some unwanted caller and therefore my call is like "Urrghh", so I better tell him/her what I want, fast so that he/she can put down the phone before I can even say peeve.
So, do me a favour. If you have to answer my call, never use those words. I WILL put the phone down fast before I say the word peeve. Sheesh, even business transaction calls do not take place that way. In fact, business transactions have the right to do that because it is a business transaction! Not a social call! Gah. Brrrr. Prrrrrrt.
Can someone tell me how to get $600 in a month?
Quote: "Some people are still alive only because it is illegal to shoot them." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:17 PM on
Love is just a bunch of crap.
Pile of rubbish.
True love doesn't exist.
Those who believes in them
Are obviously disillusioned.
If you talk about true love in the 1960s,
then yeah, there is a chance for that.
But in this light and time of the day?
Sorry. No such thing anymore.
True love has gone out of stock.
Nowadays you get,
good people who don't know how to love,
good people who are treated nicely
at random,
good people who are not given chances,
good people who are slammed right
left and centre,
bitches and bastards who get who they want
with a few snaps of the fingers,
who play the game to their advantage,
who do not know how to spell Love even,
who do not realise its beauty til it's gone.
Love is one-sided, most of the time.
If the very word is thrashed,
then its trueness don't exist anymore.
Two people have to be true to the cause.
But usually, one will be the cow more
than the other.
Love is crap.
I shall not indulge in such unnecessary
turmoils anymore.
Not til the environment around me
prove that there still is such a concept
called True Love.
It has nothing to do with him.
But he made me sit back
and wonder at the rest of the world.
PS: No offence to those who are in relationships. It's just my view.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:41 PM on
Friday, October 22, 2004
My suspicions are confirmed. My brain has gone into this sloppy, slimy, sluggish mode. I don't even know what I am thinking, why I think what I am thinking, and if my thoughts are logical, practical or useful for myself at all. If that is no consolation, my heart has decided to join the brains' ranks as well. They work independently of me. Thanks a lot, you two.
Ack. It has overcome me. I have begun to see things. Literally. Just now, after meeting Tee*, on my way home, I hallucinated twice. I walked from Orchard to Dhoby Ghaut to clear my mind.
The second time that I hallucinated, a Malay guy had to tap me on the shoulders, to wake me up from standing in the middle of the junction, looking hypnotized.
I didnt go to Boat Quay. I was scared. Of myself.
All along, I kept myself positive by looking forward to my meetup with my besties this Sunday for dinner. That is the only happy thought I can cling onto. =X
-speechless-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:32 PM on
I slept for a relatively long time. I guess I just want to sleep away my unhappiness. Isn't it supposed to be that if you go through a really huge crisis, the next day you become really bitter and angry about it as if the world will end anytime, but a few weeks later, the intensity is reduced to such an extent that it feels as though that crisis existed in another lifetime. You feel out of touch with it. But why does that not happen to me?
All of a sudden, I could relate to Robbie William's Better Man.
I just cannot handle all these heart-related issues anymore, no matter how I may want it.
Tried last night, and ended up feeling very frustrated, filled with loads of fears and nearly tears.
I can't.
And the biggest realization struck me;
I am still committed.
I wish I have 24-7 work so I can get lost in work, and not face this at all.
After all, I am the only one who is trying to figure things out.
Just like how I was the only one true to the cause.
Argh.
The serenity of the holidays have filled my days with distraught.
I'm going to my favourite chill-out place later, after Tee*.
Boat Quay.
Need to sort out my thoughts before they drive me crazy.
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Quote: "I think I'm losing my head over you." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:57 PM on
Thursday, October 21, 2004
When your heart is broken,
your boats are burned:
Nothing matters any more.
It is the end of happiness
and the beginning of peace.
Quote: "Rituals are important. Nowadays it's hip not to be married. I'm not interested in being hip." - John Lennon [raw]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:29 AM on
All the pieces of me
Playing my 3182nd pool game.
I need to sleep.
But I can't.
Because my brains are freed of its previous burdens,
it has now gone into full emotional gear.
It doesnt help that my right kidney is starting to hurt.
And my heart that has been kept numb for over 3 weeks,
Is starting to come alive.
Which isn't good.
Which only means I will be reliving the pain.
And facing it once again.
I keep thinking,
maybe I played the cards wrong,
and changed the course of the game.
I am starting to see things,
Flashbacks from the past.
Vivid memories that were never there,
When I need to call upon them.
Just as long as the tears have not started to flow,
I will be fine.
I will just quietly pick up the missing pieces of me.
Quote: "Hold up while I put on my dancing shoes." [edited]
Love,Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:20 PM on
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
~=:+:=~My Legendary Boyfriend?*~=:+:=~
Went to Little India for dinner today. Masala Chicken and thosai. Yummy Yum Yum. =)
I finished both books that I borrowed yesterday. Both by Mike Gayle. The books moved and affected me in a way that I never thought was possible. Some of the words in there really woke me up. And I was hooked to reading them. It was as enchanting.
Feeling very emotional, now.. yes..
Everybody loves a lover but too many people lack Staying Power. Love should be fatal. You should never recover from it. If you can, then it wasn't Love.
Is love really love if only of you stays true to the cause? Now, that is infatuation.
If miracles do happen, then surely, this isn't one of those.
Quote: "Do you know the difference between involvement and commitment? Think of eggs and meat. The chicken was involved. The cow was committed." [unedited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:45 AM on
=+:~:=+Chasing rainbows and butterflies=+:~:=+
Weird night? Was online til late. At about 11 pm, I decided that I wanted to go out and have a late snack. Haha. And so I did. Sashayed down to the nearest coffee shop and had a plate of fries, while I read a book I borrowed from the library. It's called My Legendary Girlfriend by some NY journalist guy. I forgot his name. It is about a guy whose girlfriend broke up with him on his birthday in their 3rd year of relationship. 3 yrs later, he was still not over her completely. He still hung her picture on his wall and think about her once a day. He got together with other girls, but he was still thinking of his ex. And he recalled about those "I will never stop loving you" messages and sweet nothings from his ex, and wondered whether those words were just decorative or meant something. He still considered his ex The One. He made friends with a girl who just broke up with her boyfriend and was moving on fine... it's quite a thought-provoking book, especially for me. I hope I won't be hung up on that bastard for 3 years. That's too much!
Will be seeing Tee again in the afternoon today. *blank-faced* Haha~.
I feel the urge for a plate of BBQ chicken wings. Yummy~. But can't get it now. Sad*.
*Yawns* Okie, laterz.
Oh btw, I love my new bloggie. Hee Hee Hee. =P
Quote: "Between grief and nothing, what would you choose?" [unedited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:34 PM on
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
This morning, I awoke to a certain realization that sent spasms of pain down through my heart.
In my first year of r/ship with the ultimate jerk of the world, my mother was against it. She was worried and consulted my grandfather who is a really religious man, and a healer. My grandfather had told my mother that this guy do not really love me and he will leave me one day and that even if I cried tears of blood, he will not come back. At first, because I was like so clouded by all the love, I refused to believe him. I thought, "Ahhh.. all these things crap. He wont do that to me."
Two years later, I was proved wrong in the worst way possible.
1) He did not really love me
2) I cried so much I thought blood will start flowing from my eyes
3) He made me suffer even after he was gone
4) He is with another person now, so he won't turn back
How could I have thought that my grandfather was wrong? How could he ever be wrong?
My grandfather would never have lied to me, although the truth may hurt.
I am his precious granddaughter!
His advice would have been his greatest gift to me.
-sighs-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:42 PM on
Monday, October 18, 2004
Yes yes, I know I am supposed to be in Greece right now, fishing or selling ice-cream. However, I decided to stay. How could I leave my family? *sobs* And my sweet friends? *sobs* And Howard? Yeah. He dedicated his entire life to intelligences and how could I let it all go to waste? *sobs* Therefore, I am back to blogging.
In Harry Potter context, blogging is like siphoning your thoughts into the Pensieve. The Pensieve is like the animated version of a diary. Blog = Online Diary = Unanimated Pensieve.
Well, you know, magic.
In Howard's logic, there is always a need to be reflective. You know, so you can slow yourself down internally and analyse your moves and mistakes and hopefully come up with some conclusions. Develop that intrapersonal intelligence. *rolls eyes*
I shall backpack to Greece when I am.. ehem.. ready. Haha~
Well, just am glad that my friend in hospital is in a good recovery process. Thank God. =)
Busy day with Tee + Visit friend in hospital + Spend time with best friend = Contented day!!!~
Quote: "If he does not know how to be a boyfriend and yet he's doing this, then he's got the natural tendency to be a jerk!" [unedited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:47 PM on
I aint blogging anymore.
It's not worth it.
Nothing is worth it, actually.
Things come and go away.
Like people.
I'm going to backpack to Greece.
Stay in sunny beaches.
Set up an ice-cream stall,
or work as a bartender
At the clubs there
or sth.
Or fish for the whole day.
Live from hand to mouth.
Just the cheery bright sunny part of Life.
Though the inside is crumbling like a piece of cookie.
Yep.
I aint blogging anymore.
-[edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:39 AM on
Sunday, October 17, 2004
~~=+=~~*Can you feel it in your soul?*~~=+=~~
5.16AM.
Not sleepy. Came back about 45 minutes ago.
Nearly 10 hours of pure fun, weirdness, oddness, ickiness, sicko-ness, manipulation?
Was quite nervous at first.. coz I lost my mood due to some incidents.. but that was during the initial meeting up.. Everything went smooth sailing afterwards.. hahahaha~
Feet are dying though.. =S But hey, im still surviving!
Me and the babe.. WERE SERIOUSLY THE BEST there..
And our time was also nicely spent on.. taking photographs.. was surprisingly reminded of Hoonie.. =) *smile smile*.. and we took different poses til we were stuck at the Metropolitan Museum or sth.. We went everywhere la, simply said..
Eddy... MSN me your comments.. don't leave them here alrite.. just for t.h.i.s entry.. =P Haha..
As an aside, I am really almost getting tired of trying. Really. I love you as a friend, and at times, I do want to know that I am loved. It gets abit weary to constantly be after you, trying to be there for you and get rejected almost half the time. You got problems? I do too. But I try to understand yours. I am there for you. Why is it that when you got problems and your other friends approach you, you don't blast them off? Or give them sarcastic comments? Why me? Are you trying to say something about our relationship as friends? Yeah, true. You are hard headed and stubborn. I am not that so. You know that. I can be mellow and mild at times. But hey, the "easy" people cannot always be the ones trying for the "hard" ones. Sometimes, the "hard" ones got to be there for the "easy" ones too. Easy, hard.. both are human beings. Nobody is a programmed animated creature. And why am I trying here? Because I LOVE you, I CARE, and I am DEAD CONCERNED about you. My life aint a bed of roses either.
Quote : "Nah, you didnt make me into a bitch. You made me strong girl, with higher self-respect now. But you aint. You can never look into the mirror again without feeling guilty. FUCK U ZUL!!" {unedited}
5.39am.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:42 AM on
Saturday, October 16, 2004
~=+:::+=~Feel the wind on your shoulder~=+:::+=~
Mother: Bring your boyfriend home..
Anna : Boyfriend? Who? Me (Anna)? *perplexed* *stopped chewing food*
Mother: Yeah, bring your boyfriend over, we all go break fast together.
Anna : Ehem. The boyfriend "died" nearly a month ago. *forgot about food altogether*
Mother: Died? Oh. *comprehension dawned*
*sighs*
Why did I win the battle only when the soldiers no longer exist?
Quote: "You took my heart and you took my pride away."[edited]
Love,Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:36 AM on
Friday, October 15, 2004
Damn tired. Near brain-dead. Brain suicide thanks to Designing Learning Environment. First paper that kept the kids in for almost 3/4 of the time given. What does it say? I dont know whether to say that the lecturer is so kind, or she was having brain suicide when setting the paper too. *wispy laughter*
Back to mugging. Not robbery, no. Just another brain suicide attempt.
Think, brain, think! *slaps self*
-No quotes-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:32 PM on
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Anytime I feel the love,
I just close my eyes,
And dream of where you are...
[When he appeared at my doorstep,
I was so so soooo happieee... =)]
Wokie dokie.
An uneventful day. Did some studying. Irritate the shit out of someone. Met Eddy, caught a glimpse of Mrs SheepiDip and.... found Jerry!!!
At first, I didnt want to go out early because I wanted to continue studying first before my class. Mrs SheepiDip urged me, through msn, to meet her and Eddy. I said.. "Cant. Got stuffs to do." Hee Hee. Also, coz I was feeling so lazy. Like a cheshire cat~ Mwahaha. =X
Then, later on when Mrs SheepiDip and the Anti-Suntan Girl logged off, I went to have some munchies. A while later, Eddy logged on... persuaded me through calling me "lazy".. so I decided to meet her first.. hrmff.
At LJS, opposite Eddy was... Jerry! Hee Hee. That adorable friend of mine. We were like so excited about bumping into each other there. Haha. He was my hunger savior when I worked at CS.. gave me free bread. Hee Hee. And saved me from the clutches of that fishchopper guy who proposed to me. Urgh. Belch. Belch. *face turns green at the recollection* Jerry gave me the juiciest bit of information ever.. that fishchopper guy got fired!!! Ha ha. Ok, I am not like happy because someone lost his job, but it is very hard to suppress my glee when he had been a pervert towards me, but tried acting all mature and responsible towards the other staff people.
Anna : Hey, so what happened to that fishchopper guy?
Jerry : He got fired.
Anna: (shocked lar duh~) Fired?! Why??
Jerry: You wont believe it. He... (pauses and smiles) stole 8 boxes of Fererro Rocher!
Anna: 8 cartons?
Jerry: No, the box with 36 chocolates inside. He stole 8 boxes of that sort.
Anna: Why?
Jerry: For charity...
I was shocked. (duh~) Coz he really portrayed himself to be the responsible fellow. Like, if there is trouble with the customers, or the shipments or whatsoever lar.. he would be the guy most would be comfortable with to talk to. Not including me, duh~ After all the funny stunts he tried to pull on me, including asking me to lock the store room so that only the both of us would be inside! Wah liew~. He stole the chocs so that he could give them away in this charity event he was working on. That is dramatic irony. In its extremity. *gasps*
Overall, I was happy happy that I met Jerry. Thanks to Eddy. If she had not successfully persuaded me, I wont be out there at that time, and I wont meet him at all. Haha. Of course, I paid Eddy back by running with her for her bus. Hrmph. *glare*
Anyway, in the evening, after all the stuffs and scheduled things are done, I headed to Raffles Place and studied again... at night fall, I sat by Boat Quay, and just watched the serenity. It was such a pretty sight.
So peaceful... =)
Quote: "I dont have any good vibes about her. If I had, I wont mind losing you to her." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:37 PM on
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Coz Mr Jerk-cum-Bastard is officially SCARED of ME!!!
Yes, me! The innocent one, the played out one, the one who cried endless days and endless nights.. the one who prayed it was just another very bad nightmare, the one whose heart broke like nobody's business, the one who was treated like a dumb frigging shit... is now all triumphant!!!
Triumphant!!! *drum roll please!!!*
That freaking piece of slimeball is.. scared of me. Fear me. He cowers before me. Knees shaking.
Can no longer face me in the eye. Mwahahhahahah!!! And all these years, I was the afraid one.
Today, I stand much taller than the whole of his 1.83m frame. =)
I dont feel sorry for sounding like such a biatch, because I deserve all the happiness. Scram, if you dont think so.
Enough of that piece of shit.
I went out with MY GIRLS today. It was a short brief meeting that lasted from like.. hrm.. 1pm til 7 plus.. but it was all sweet. And we certainly caught up on a lot. A lot, man. Again, towards the end, the coffee joint was our lepak place. And the guys in the coffee joint were so irritating. They purposely delayed my coffee order, by asking me stupid dumb pricking questions, like matching my order to the shirt I was wearing. Bleah~ Guys. What do you expect? When we think they are intelligent, they act dumb. When we think they are dumb... well... they remain dumb lar, or possibly, dumber.
Mwahahhahahaa... And I had such a terrific luck at pool today! I won every single game! And my opponents are no beginners! And I played well, considering how sometimes, I can be pretty bad. I think being happy brings in prosperity. =) *grinz*
Ok, enough of blogging for now.
I wish to rest my eyes, and relish in the new-found fact, as abovementioned.
Mwahahhaha~
Quote: "Oh, I don't have time to entertain all these.... *pause*... things." [not edited]
Source of quote: The Jerk's gf who tried her best to be Ms English, but failed miserably.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:03 PM on
Going out soon to meet my girls. The italicised words are just a mockery of that jerk's words lar. Haha. Anway, I aint saying where I am going. Not that anyone cares, anyway. Haha~. I sound delirious uh. Havent met them for quite some time, so everytime we meet up, it's like a golden opportunity. Hope we will have fun or sth today, just catching up on stuffs.
Haha. I have this feeling that the mega-watt jerk is now afraid of me. And that is the best thing ever. I have never been feared by him. Now that he is.... whooopey doo!!!~
Ok, I certainly am delirious. I think it is because of the absence of food, and I have already eaten my painkillers. Well, I cant be going out with my girls with an ache on my head. Otherwise known as headache. Yeah yeah I know. Lame~
Well, I better get going now... the train station is near yet so far. I will blog again later, if ever I feel obliged to do so. Mwahahhahahahhaha~~~ =P
Or, I might delete this entry because a delirious Anna isnt a wise move.
Quote: "It just happened." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:57 PM on
Monday, October 11, 2004
Murder scene. A floor above mine. "Stabbed on the left and right chest"... words passed from one blue guy to the other. Blue and white tapes strewn all over the place. Blue and white cars parked carelessly behind the postbox area. -shudders-
Poor murdered one. Why must these things happen? Murder. Why take someone's else life? If that bugger was really such a pest, then let him be punished by God. Punish yourself for his deeds, for what? He is happily floating up there, and you end up in Jail. Yes, with a capital J.
My favourite song these days is "She will be Loved" by Maroon 5. For some weird reason, I keep imagining myself to be the woman in this song, and some guy is that stupid enough to serenade me with this song, trying to convince me to leave whoever I am with just to be with him. Stupid huh. But sometimes being alone, your mind just goes into fleets of wonders. But it is kinda sweet. If a guy is willing to wait even if I am attached, that guy is salute-able*. Because one of the hardest things in Love is, to watch someone you love loving someone else. And what makes it harder is if you actually wait. Only God knows if such a wait is rewarded. *winks*
Quote: "I have been dating monkeys." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:30 PM on
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Back from the shopping centre near my place. I had lunch with the babe. =) She shared with me her clubbing stories. Hilarious and cute sia~ Now, Im blogging away yet again.
Come to think of it, putting aside all the might-have-beens and could-have-beens, I think I am actually better off being alone. Maybe I was meant to be alone, right from the start. No, I am not being pessisismist. I am actually contented about it. "It"--> Being alone. Wait, corrections. Being not attached. I am never alone. My friends are always there. =) Thanks dearies.
I am contented.. because this whole free period of mine, I can calm myself down, free my mind of its troubled thoughts, empty its painful cell membranes, and fill it up with happy thoughts and memories. =)
This way, I will be ready when the next one come, I will be much more calmer, more refined, more "perfect" to accept the next person, his quirky habits, new tempers, new routines, new schedules. It is an exciting adventure. Sadly, for that person, he head dived right into another relationship without stopping enough to calm himself.. He brought his past pain right onto a clean plate of connection.
He will continuosly be spending his money, when I know he has so much financial problems, that tied him down for many many years ever since his poly days. He owe up to over $10,000 to people. The breakup should have given him the opportunity to sort out his Life before even thinking of taking care of another person. But oh well, it is his choice since he loves trouble so much. Reflecting back, the girl is not exactly good news. Heard from her, seen her, nope... if she had been anything special, yes I might be jealous that she is a better catch.
But sorry. None of all those things. She is just normal. Probably she caught him right in his moment of weakness. I dont feel threatened, nor do I feel worried, uneasy, blah blah.. =)
Well, as again, whatever*. None of my business. Just my reflection anyway.
I am happier being by myself now. All the dough to myself! *grins*
Have so many plans made for the upcoming hols... but I wonder if they will all take place. Haha~
Some of my friends are in trouble.. I really want to be there for them.. but do they know that I am always there for them?
Quote: "So tired of being tormented & defeated by you when I have already reached the bottom." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:29 PM on
Yesterday sent me a really strange feeling. The past few weeks had me rushing through work, work, work and more work and suddenly at 12 noon, everything stopped right there. It's all over. I went to Holland V after that with Eddy because I thought going straight home would make me feel even much more stranger.
*pauses*
Anyway, I am much much more calmer now than the time I typed my last blog entry. When I read it again, I realised that hey, it was a piece of creative writing indeed, despite that it was peppered with vulgarities. I had smashed my resolution all at one shot in that entry, though.
However, that does not mean I have forgiven them. Heck. These two buggers should be the ones to seek apologies from me. The adulterers!
To my friends who were shocked by my last entry, haha, sorry yar. She threw water on my electrifying wires, not just trip them. And, to those who are having their exams or busy with their assignments, good luck. It will all be over soon.
Quote: "The heart is not a fool to stay behind." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:40 AM on
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Someone got on the wrong side of me today. As I was happily taking pictures of sunny Singapore, guess who was on the phone? Deana the slut. I am so sorry if I terrify many with my extremely colorful language, although I am not sorry to this BITCH. I was nice. Nicer than any normal person would be. BUT!! That slut still has got lots to learn. I am so bloody pissed off. This bitch has just sealed enmity and war with me. So fucking rude. What the fuck. Just because the bitch got the bastard's balls, is no fucking big deal!! Don't wage with me, you fucker, coz you aint knowing what's gonna come to you. My claws will sink deep into your fucking stupid ugly fuck face that you will look much more screwed up and fucked up than the bastard you got. That bastard you are so proud of? The one with the many holes on his face? The one who washes his face, like, what? Once a month? That piece of slimy shit, you are so proud of? FUCKING BITCH, you just set off an anger within me that I kept under very tight control. Hearing your screechy voice on the phone, makes me wonder how it can seduce the likes of bastards like that bastard that you are with now. Your screechy voice is like hearing the sharp long claws scratching the blackboard. Fucker. Slut. Bitch. Bitch. SLut. SLut. WHore. Whore. Fucking bitch. Whore, you work in a bloody office as a secretary sucking your boss's balls to earn more moonlight money, is such a big fucking deal isit??? Goodness. Your language so the very power damn suckerful, my sis's English is million times better than yours.Fuckee! You got the bastard, you got his balls. So fucking what, whore? He's blardy hopeless lar. Today, you are all.. Oooh-im-so-in-love!!! Tmrw, you will be taking care of this fucking bastard, paying for his cigarettes, his transportation fare, his food, your dates, your trips, God knows what else!!! Fucking shit. This guy cant even take care of half of himself, and he wants to take care of you, the secretary with much more money??? Bitch, I feel so bad that you might have to suck your other males' balls now.
Fucking bitch. You wait til I see you in the flesh. You are so gonna get screwed. Your ugly fuck face will be so fucking smashed, you wont even recognize yourself anymore. Fucking slut.
This is war.
-Deeply Angered Anna-
Ps: I am so sorry dearest of readers, I might delete this entry if I calm down.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:12 AM on
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
When I heard how much you are in love with her,
my heart was filled with laughter far more than anger,
When I heard that she loves you that very much,
my hard-earned patience starts to lose its touch...
It is true they say that a broken True Love,
Will come round to hit back in a 180 degree swerve...
I am beginning to see that...
What did I do that I was so easily forgotten?
The hardships I endured only to end up getting burnt...
I went back into the pages of my memories,
From the very first hug to the very last kiss...
I admit that there were mistakes I shouldnt have made,
But does it mean I have to be hit by your anger so flamingly red?
Even a blind bat can see that you no longer hold a torch for me,
Yet why do I still stupidly love you and be all so silly?
Allowing your happy words sink in to kill me slowly...
Though there are many out there telling me to break free...
There was once, my dear...
When your happiness makes me smile,
And your sadness makes me cry...
Today..
Your happiness makes me cry...
........
-for today and for tommorrow-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:36 AM on
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Adlina! Pleasantly surprised by your visit. Miss ya! -hugs- =)
If there is one thing that I realise... that this whole freakish incident has caused all of my long-lost friends to come out of the woodwork.. He He He..
Today... hrm... rushed to my attachment centre to get my Time sheet signed... My lecturer was abnormally nice today. She did not lock the door after the clock had struck 3. As her class was at 3 pm, she always locked the door promptly at 3pm. If there was an assignment to be handed in, the locked out person will be dropped a grade or fail. But today! Whoa.. even ehems have their good days huh? Well, well.
Have made a few plans for the upcoming holidays... Hurrah! Speaking of which! My schedule for the next semester is sooo.. confusing.. to say the least? And most were grumbling... starts on 6 December with only 1.5 off days for Christmas, 2.5 days for Chinese New Year.. horrible..
But it wont beat how I feel about the impending Hari Raya Puasa...
-scared stiff-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:00 AM on
Monday, October 04, 2004
Today is the best/worst cry of my Life. After my night prayers (Isha'), I started crying. Cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and just cried. It was so bad that I vomited. I was lucky enough to be able to reach a plastic bag in time. The only way I can be sad enough to cry this bad is if the hurt really reaches so deep inside me that I can almost literally feel a backstabbing slash on my heart. I think it must have been.
This is the third time in 20 years.
I miss my friends. Every single one of them..
LiNN.. chappati soon?
Eddy.. coffee, chick-lit soon?
Shannen... huggies?
Hoon.. $48 massage?
Harveen.. retail therapy?
Too many to miss... Too many...
Quote: "Love is probably the most pleasurable pain there ever is" [edited]
-starting to hate you-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:45 AM on
Sunday, October 03, 2004
My friends are truly such dearies.. every single one of them. =)
Knowing my state of mind lately... it was cute and sweet... the way each of them try to show their support, encouragement and concern..
There are those who... came up with cute pointers that I have never thought of..
"Think of it this way. You don't have to be a passive smoker. And ruin your health which is already at risk" [edited]
There are those who... tried their very best to distract me with some joke, though half the time I dont catch it... hahaha.
There are those who gave me hugs... and more... hugs..
There are those who sent me messages and more.. messages of encouragement... to tell me that they are here for me...
"You dont deserve all that is happening to you now. I am not telling you to be strong. Nor am I telling you to be weak either. Friends are not for laughter, we are here to share your sorrows." [edited]
There are those... who just lepak with me.. lar..
"Luke's the man.. the man.." [coffee joint members would know..]
There are also those who... defend me til the end...
Yet, they also let me be alone.. to ponder.. to think.. to cry.. when I need to.
To my dearies... maybe from time to time, I show my weakness... maybe from time to time.. you get tired of hearing me out about someone who is probably better off as steak for the beasts... maybe from time to time... I am not myself...
But.. with your love and encouragement for me... nothing else beats it... you know that...
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:55 PM on
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Saturday morning. Woke up at 7 am because someone msged me. First thing that went through my head was "Here we go again!" I could not sleep after that. CoNfuSioN starts to seep in like a bottle of poison spreading nicely and quite evenly throughout my veins. I was calling cat "dog" and dog "cat", the bread "toaster" and the toaster "bread". Get the idea? Yes, achingly painfully confusing as that.
Haha. Like LiNN, a hundred (possibly more) ran through my head too. Here are some of those thoughts... although I dont expect much of answers since nobody reads this blog much anyway, and then of course, I will be left with the confusion I am stuck with today.
Why... really, oh why do the bad people have all the good times and things happen to them?
Why.. and really, oh why do the good people always have to wait for the good things to happen to them?
What do you do when you want to achieve something and you receive a million oppositions? Do you still go ahead with it?
Is it better to be practical or to follow your heart?
Is what's in the head temporary or it's what in the heart that's temporary?
.... there are so much more.. and I feel such rhetorical questions are debate-able; meaning again, there is no definite answer.
These days, I love to sleep on my thoughts. I am beginning to love night-time, sleep-time. Although I have been complaining about my dreams, but point is, sleeping pauses the real thinking and the pain or confusion that comes with it. But this is the busiest period in my Life! I can't be sleeping all day! Speed October 16 up please!
Oh.. yesterday, I met these two guys at Plaza Singapura. One of the guys wanted to feed some yakitori thingy to the other guy. The other guy shook his head and p.o.u.t.s his lips and walk ahead. Someone, please agree with me that this is g.r.o.s.s!!!
Oh by the way, I cursed 5 times yesterday. With a conscious effort. I think if there was a pareto diagram on that for me, there would be a 75% reduction after implementation of effort.
Apart from being confused, I am also sad. Very sad. Very Very Veryyyy saddd.... (Enough.)
But I cannot cry. I cannot. Someone is preventing me from doing that.
Quote: "I like to be realistic about things but I do keep a portion of my faith for a miracle."
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:56 PM on
Friday, October 01, 2004
Emotional rollercoaster ride yet again. Painful as it is, something is stopping me from breaking down. I dont know what. I wish to discover though.
Sigh. This is the greatest hurdle I have to go through in Life. And I know it. This beats the challenge to score straight As for the O levels. At least, that took only months. I wonder how long this is going to take to dissolve. Years? Centuries? Haha. By centuries, I will be dead. Or was that decades? Hrm I dont know.
ALright. Leaving e house now... meeting my friend H at a very Malay place.
Y'all take care.
-Miss you-
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:26 AM on
I wondered. I was wondering. And I still wonder. Thinking hurts. Sometimes, thinking can be... weird as well. Today, I told my Huggies about the dreams I have been having, and asked for opinions. I was surprised by the interpretations of the dreams... which were quite different from mine actually. But never mind. =) I wish the dreams will go away... but they are good dreams. I dont want bad dreams. Okay.. I am starting to see their point of view...
There are a few things I want to confess. But I dont think blogging is the right way to do so... Well, whatever. Ok so...
Today, I had a dress code crisis? Haha. I have not been eating well at all, plus I was sad.. so I guess I lost a bit of weight.. and it really showed through my super slippery jeans. Any looser, I will be naked waist down! So, Eddy helped me make a belt out of my shawl. I looked like part of some Lion Dance troupe or some dance troupe la.
Im going to this part of the country that I have not been visiting for some time tmrw.. haha. With a friend who.. hrm.. let's just say... we all need retail therapy from time to time huh...
Then, lepak-ing with my Huggies in the evening... looking all cool like journalists.
Quote: "Tak guna kau merana kalau dia menjoli.."
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
