At 11:01 PM on
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
*Laughs* Yes. Yesterday, I had my virgin movie with the girls.. Harv, Chilli, Eddy. Sweet movie it is.. Bridget Jones Diary- Edge of Reason. It was so real and raw it was sweet. Bridget is nothing you would consider THE sex goddess, thus making almost three-quarter of the women in the world able to identify with her woes. It was enjoyable, in addition to the cracks we make in the theatre. Haha. After the show, and a little of walking around, Harv and Chilli left for their own destinations, leaving me & Ed to trod around town. The funny thing is... I seem to always run into old school mates or contacts, while Ed ran into hers. Haha. Thats why it seemed as though everyone went to Town together.
Anyway, I am done with Sky. Overlooking flaws is something that I think everyone has gotten used to. But when someone gets too insulting ALL the time, certainly I cannot just be quiet about it. Therefore, I am staying aloof. Just wishing he will melt to nothingness very soon. Erk.
I think Retribution is a very scary thing. But it is... a good kick in the head for some. Which reminds me... Westlife, the famous all-by band has released an album of songs sung in a very oldie goldie manner. Aint it a kick in the head is a nice song.... I dont know about the rest. I dont know what is wrong with them.. one such song is enough ar. But a whole album of it! Wohh! Tough to digest.
QuOte UnqUotE >>"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do." -Nan Fairbrother <<
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:40 AM on
A bright glow lits &
fills your eyes
Your eyes warn me
Not to touch you
Your dreams too
are reflected in
your eyes
I have searched for
you in the skies above
Wishing I can find you
encased in a cloud
I looked for you at every
nook and corner
Wishing I could see you
walk on the river banks
I held onto Time
to ask where you are
I asked the river
and the vast ocean
I walked the crest of waves
just to feel your caress..
# The reason this entry is here at this time is because for the longest time in my Life, someone really made me smile inside and out. Someone made me see that there is still beauty in this world. Someone made me see that there are still strawberry ice-cream sundaes and milkshakes to share over coffee tables. There is still the rainbow that arcs over the whole globe. The sun shines brightly on me and yet the clouds are there to guard me from getting burnt. I did believe but never got much chance to be convinced. If this is a dream, I do not ever want to be awake. If this is reality, I do not wish to fall into slumber. *smiles*
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:11 AM on
Monday, November 29, 2004
[Issue No. 3]
I have a very forgiving nature which I am not sure if I should love or hate. It is both my weakness and strength, I guess. So, the idea is, in an entry earlier in the days, I had almost deleted Sky out of my Life. But for some very dumb reason I am not aware of myself, I forgave him yet again, re-added him to my MSN, and basically, reignited the communication between us. The confusing thing about him... remains. When Sky sensed my anger, he was quick to say sorry and that he would never bring the issues I wish to bury, dug out again.. that he understood. He asked for far much more than I could and want to give anyway. And that, he could not understand. I value friends.. and he is after all, a friend. But surely it does not mean he is allowed to test my sincerity again and again. Thus, I am confused. =X
*********
Enough of Sky. I will think about him later. In a few good hours... Bridget Jones time! Heheheh. Reverted to a Townie after being a Time Checker for the weekend. *smiles cheekily*
Accessories too! Haha. Looking forward to load on the bangles. Which reminds me.. I had Ramly burger from the funfair near my house! Yay! But of course.. it sure cannot beat the one at Geylang during the fasting month. I remember eating it only 2 nights before raya itself. It was an orgasm in the mouth. One of the True Food Bliss.. sighs. I better catch some winks or I will not awake in Time [there goes the word again~]. Haha. See ya later at 12, Ed!
QuOte.. >>"Kisses that are easily obtained are easily forgotten"<<
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:25 PM on
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Yesterday left me breathless with exhaustion, filled to the brim with a variety of mee, and other goodies, and almost irritated at the word [Time]. Heheh. I was the Time checker. Considering that we are almost on a fierce mission to finish 17 houses, Time was an essential matter to address. Aerfi, Firdaus, Taufik joined us this year. It was a whole merry-making gang get together. Hehe. Laughter filled the air, like bucket of overflowing water.
I just wanna thank you all for making the day so memorable and so beautiful, I will always remember it. One of the best moments of the year is shared with you guys. As soon as I got home, I started missing the whole bunch of you already. *smiles* That is how much you guys mean to me.
Thank you LiNN, Aini, Siti, Dayana, ShaSha, Adlina, Zahira, Ain, Aaron, Yahya, Taufik, Nila, Firdaus, Aerfi, Sanusi, Fadli.
My heartfelt thanks to Aaron, Aini, Aerfi, Adlina & Firdaus for really taking your time to finish the last house with me although it is insanely late. *smiles*
And... a huge warm thanks to Ash.. who called me at 3am and made my slumber a much sweeter one. *smiles*
Thank you all for walking into my Life.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:43 AM on
Friday, November 26, 2004
[Issue No.2]
Sky has a friend from work who wants to befriend me. The latter bugger had broken off with his girlfriend, thus wants to make more friends. I have always hated being rolled over, and I was a little disturbed Sky mentioned this to me. In fact I was way disturbed than just a little. I dont mind being friends, but the mention of a breakoff being the motivation for it makes me feel damn uneasy. Thankfully, Sky understood.
I had forgiven Sky on account that it is a very holy month after all and I would rather forgive him than have him accounted to me for it. Much later on, Sky told me he l-o-v-e-s me. It took me 5 minutes for that to sink in. Immediately after, I blocked and deleted him from my MSN.
I switched off my mobile. And went off to Dreamland, where endings are almost always much more reliably beautiful. I will definitely miss Sky. But this is the best for me. And that is far more essential.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:10 PM on
Thursday, November 25, 2004
I was attacked by 3 different emotions at one go last night. I nearly got a migraine from it all. I was talking to two of them on MSN. One was irritating the blackheads out of me. LoL. One was being fabulously sweet and funny and making me feel guilty all at one shot. One was talking to me on my mobile and was being very sweet and understanding. I wish I could divide myself into three to handle the three different emotions. Unfortunately for me though, I could not. And Sky, the one who managed to really make me see red, really won the confusing battle. I ended my call with Sweet One. I chatted with my buddy Beruang who made me laugh, while I try my best to tell Sky he was getting on my nerves. I changed my nicks nearly a hundred times to be sarcastic. Haha. He asked me twice whether he was the one who is making me angry. A huge DUH was floating above my head. But I didnt answer him. So I irritated him in return. LoL. He could not take it and left. He msged me this morning saying SORRY.
I was really angry with Sky because I already told him that there are certain issues I do not wish to have to address again. Again. As in E-v-e-r. It was okay for a week at least. But then, he started it again. To add salt to injury, he did it in a way I could only term as insulting. I dont know what to do. Sometimes it seems he is mentally fine.. sometimes I feel as if he is insane. I dont know lar. Til now, I have not yet forgiven him. I dont even know if I should or if I want to.
Whatever.
Beruang is such a great friend and listener. He is one of those buddies anyone can ask for. He makes me laugh, forces me to be just as lame [Although I constantly beat him at that.. haha], listens to my whinings, grumbles and then make me laugh again. He gets worried when he knows I am down and he couldnt do a thing about it. Haha. Although he doesnt know about this blog, I just wanna say thank you for making a change in my Life.
And this goes out to all my sweet darling fwenz as well.. You know who you are..
I love you all~!
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:35 PM on
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
I went for facial earlier at Takashimaya. I usually do those things at home. I went for this one also because I just wanted to shut the promoter guy up.(He viciously cornered me at Raffles Place) Since I paid, I decided I might as well go for it. Well, after going through the nitty gritty survey on skin, and the other promotions that are available, and disappointing the manager cum promoter a few good times, I was ushered to Room 29, for the treat. Haha. A skin "lawn mower" made of thin glass was used to urhh.. remove the dead skin and impurities. A weird object was then later used to squeeze the blackheads out. By the time she finished polishing my skin, I felt raw. Haha. She massaged my hands, neck and back. I felt horribly seduced. =X
I feel like a stone
Just wanna be alone
Just for a while
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:20 AM on
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Raya visiting with ol buddies coming soon. I am excited and looking forward to it. Great crowd. Great bonding. I just wish that everything will be smooth sailing. Sometimes I feel that the hectic schedules of Life really tear us all away from one another. Like I said, every meeting for me is a golden moment. Because for sure, although we all live in the same country, the number of times we manage to meet seems as if we are all from different continents of the world.. Haha. No offense here. Just my musings. But this year is a huge move from the last, at least. =>
I am going swimming later. Although I am lazier than lazy... rather slackier than slack... but I kinda miss the water manz. And morning ones! Damn fresh! Yay! Hee hee.. =>
I wanted to make this a long blog, but I kinda feel like my rest is more essential. Okie. Anyone observant enough .. tell me which letter did I not use in this whole entry... Hahahaha.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:22 PM on
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Seems I have not been blogging for a while. I would like to attribute that to my sLacKer-than-sLacK-sInCe-its-HoLidAy attitude. Anyway, hrm. Troubles loom ahead which I dun only foresee because I just know it is gonna be that way. But, I shall move slowly. I know I can go through this yet again and survive without too much scars. Hrmmz.
By the way, may I note that my own countrymen are really tragic figures when it comes to being an audience. I was in front of Taka*, and there were street buskers.. some kinda world festival. So, naturally, there were different talents showcasing their stuffs. And naturally, my fellow countrymen are the audience. Sadly. If I were showing my stuff and I had them as an audience, I would just close case and go home. Haha. But of course they are well-trained and I guess well-versed in handling lousy audiences, so they went on. I tried my best, along with Ed, to really show our joy and delight at their showcase. *rolls eyes* Boo to audience! [xcluding me n Ed of coz]
The new movie featuring Aishwarya Rai and Martin Henderson is a nice family sorta show. Heheh. Of course, Hindi movies do not run away from Love that much so you get family, love, wealth, yadda yadda.. etc. Overall it was okay. But Martin Henderson.. sighs. And this is just about the cleanest show you can see him in. Hahaha.
Quote >>Like Gloria Estefan says, the rhythm is gonna get you<<
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:47 PM on
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
I don't know who I have become these days, but certainly it is all good. Okie not all, but satisfyingly some. There is just so much Love that is surrounding me and I truly feel looked after, and blessed. (",) I only hope it's not some short-term circumstance lar.
Today, I counseled a friend. When I saw what is happening to him, it scared me. He is probably what I would have become if I had not held on strongly to my faith in God and the power of Time... the love of my family.. new friends.. old friends.. And the power of the spirit of Ramadan and Syawal. What most friends saw of me in my state of agony for that few weeks, my friend allowed it to drag to a year.. and when it was time to let go, he was completely agonized. I hope that my being there for him can ease his burdened pain a little. He is adorable and sweet, full of potential to succeed in the future. And I want to see him happy. Haha, well he did promise to bring back presents for me from Amsterdam. He better. Kwang kwang kwang~ =)
And I am beginning to be interested in Malay epics and legends. Freaky uh. =X
Quote: "Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain." -Leo Buscaglia. [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:20 AM on
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:44 PM on
Monday, November 15, 2004
The time spent waiting for my parents is so much longer than the time that I took to set my hair and do my makeup. *rolls eyes* The King & Queen really take their time uh.
Gonna go shopping again. Holland V, here I come! Haha. A friend told me that I have gone nuts since.. those days. Haha.
Whatever. I would rather be crazy happy than crazy sad, I said.
Bestie had chicken pox a day before raya. I guess it must be a gruesome sort of irritation to her. Imagine not being able to put on makeup.. (She wears makeup).. she must be sad. And those things take time to clear off. Erk~ I still remember getting chicken pox the day before I was supposed to go for holiday overseas and I recall screaming at the doctor who advised me not to go because the pox will spread to my face e next morning. How I hate him. How I banged on his white table with gruesome vigor. Kwang kwang kwang~
Visiting again later. More interviews coming up! LoLx.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:29 AM on
Sunday, November 14, 2004
I realise that my heart is dead. Beating only enough to keep me alive. And to sense dangers and stuffs. But I cannot truly truly feel. Scarily. I realised I cannot shed a single tear. Not a single one. It is as if my heart is exhausted or just beyond numb. Paralysed. I sat down, listened to a torrent of sad songs, recalled the nastiest of memories. My heart just clenched and unclenched but no tears came. And I did not feel sad, at the least. Just analysis by analysis.
Until... takbir raya.
Takbir raya has always this sizzling effect on my heart, nothing else has. As if it is independent of me, I could see in my mind's eye, that the air of coldness around it has melted a little, and there lay a semi-bare heart. Stab stab stab... my eyes started to tear. I cried. How lovely it felt. To finally feel. Not just skate on ice. But to get to the floor after all the ice has melted.
It is 2.35 am officially. I wonder if I can wake up at all to dress up and go out visiting the elders' houses. I look forward to the food, meet-the-people session, the joy and happiness no other gathering may have.. yet I fear the annual interviews set up for me. =X
*Nevertheless, argh. The Devils are unleashed. Sighs.
Quote: "A kiss is like drinking salted water, the more you drink it, the thirstier you become." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:30 PM on
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Fireworks.
Bright cheery faces
Duit collection.
Food feast.
Beautiful ladies.
Smart men.
Forgiveness.
The forgiven.
Nostalgia.
Greatest gratitude to Him.
[[*smiles*]]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:07 PM on
Friday, November 12, 2004
Friday alas.
I will be sharing space with approx. 200,000 other people later in the evening. -_-"
(Muka bored sia~) Haha. What I hate most about going there is firstly, even if I bath in Escada parfum, I will still smell like Ramly burger at the end of the trip. And the number of people who should not be there is astounding. Free-lance models, literally. Haha. =P But they take up space, therefore making the already squeezed place more sardine-packed.
Waking up to an SMS of exam results was heart pounding. Scrap that. I actually forgot that today is the release of the exam results. LoL. When I woke up and saw my hp blinking, I figured it was just a normal sms. But, no.. it was my exam results. Lucky they were fine, or I would die the moment I wake up. Hehehz. Some grades were unexpected though. Good unexpected lar. Now, let's just see what the Boss has to say about them.
These few days have been way too peaceful for me.
And my heart is stirring, from its deathbed.
Shite.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:37 PM on
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Baking cookies for a few days already. Tarts.. cookies.. cookies.. kwang kwang kwang~
I have no idea where I pick this weird language --> "kwang kwang kwang"
Some of my friends ask me what that means. Honestly, even I have no idea..
So, I surmised as much. Maybe it is the malay version of "Ha ha ha" or "Heh heh heh".
Yes? No? Maybe? I don't know. *shrugs*
I didn't know that just switching on the television once, can stir certain feelings in me. It feels as though certain dead parts of me are stirring from their state of immobility. I don't know if I am glad. Because with these little revivals, fear comes to accompany them.
Time does heal certain things... I didn't believe Mrs Shahi at first. But I think it's true now. We remember events and incidents vividly in the first 5 minutes, 5% is gone by the next half hour.
She was of course talking about consistent studying but urm.. let's just say, my upbringing in Literature and observational skills nurtured in practicums are not wasted.
Kwang kwang kwang~
=)
Eddy... me want ma bracelet!! How my heart yearns for it...
*sad*
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:09 AM on
Friends, beware. If a popup appears on your computers trying to urge you to download Anti-spywares or spywares or what not, ignore it or just "X" the bloody window. These stuffs are one of the shittiest freaks you may ever have to handle in your IT life.. These freakers are like brokers. The moment you click "yes", they will unleash Hell onto your computer. So, please. Do yourselves a favor. Do not, I repeat, do NOT click "Yes".
My body is cool. It takes revenge upon itself.
No sleep for 2 days. So avenge for sleep for 2 days.
Good job. Now I am all bright and perky.
(Yeah right)
I am not sure if I will be online for a while.
Because I have to reconfigure this shit of a computer belonging to me.
It may take a few good days for it to be nursed back to its perky self.
You people take care.
Eddy, sorry once again. I know I have been such a crap. Hahaha.
But the cookie dough was waiting for me in the kitchen. =)
Love y'all.
Muacks!!!
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:37 PM on
Monday, November 08, 2004
Woke up at 3.45pm. Haha.. yes yes. Gasp Gasp. Well.. after not sleeping for 2 days straight.. the mind took its own revenge to rest. By plunging me deep into the abyss of sweet dreams.
Which meant I completely aborted the agenda for the entire day. Simply because I slept through them. First time in my Life, I zonked out this way.
Special apologies go out to Eddy. Sorry dude. Wasn't in control.
No light shopping.
No tete-a-tete with the Kid from Hell.
Haha.
I feel at ease though.
I am happy, for the first time in days.
And I believe there are happier days ahead.
=)
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:38 AM on
Im a goner. 2 days without sleep had made me deliriously high that I started typing nonsense on MSN while chatting with a friend. In the end, in the most un-Anna likeness, I logged off and slept. And woke up just about now, 5 hours later. Still feeling stupid and sleepy. *grimaced*
Doing light shopping today. =)
And I think more sleep is in order. And it happens about now.
*poof*
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:17 AM on
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Madness! You may say. Why is this girl up and blogging away at this time? You may ask.
(Sounds like a very cheesy way to start an entry even for me. Haha.)
Yes yes. I met my challenge despite the doubts I had about myself. Haha. I woke up at 9am all by myself. Of course, with the help of an inanimate object otherwise known as the handphone. Alarm. Haha. And then, my sweet mate whom I was supposed to meet, postponed the time.
Smiles.
Thus, in all deliriousness, I decided to blog. What better way to kill time? Well, you may say, I should be taking the opportunity to sleep, considering that I had only slept for about 1.5 hrs. But I know that once I put my head on the pillow, I will be zonked out for hours. Haha.
Readjusting mind's focus to: Shopping.
Sits yoga-style.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:58 AM on
This rather longish holiday is turning me into a major sLacKer. Apart from the mashed timings between day and night, turning me into a nocturnal creature, I cannot seem to function properly during the day as well. Haha. My mind is constantly in a daze, as though someone had bashed the Life out of my brains.
Nevertheless, I did my shopping, which I had conveniently delayed for 3 days. Shopping. And I delayed that. Ahem. *slaps self*
Now, what used to be chicken feet is now a huge challenge:
Waking up at 9am tommorow.
Reach town at 11am.
Must do it or I am so dead.
Is it possible?
Wish me luck.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:26 AM on
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Baby,
You got me feening,
You got me feeling weak
Listen as I speak,
Im careful as I creep
You got me going crazy,
You know I can't sleep
No fortunes your move,
You hypnotise me
You got me trembling
like a little baby girl
You're so special
You're like diamonds
and pearls
You got me spinning
You got me in a twirl
You're my number one baby
And you are here
You rock my world..
[Be the one I need..
Be the one I trust most..
Don't stop inspiring me..]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:27 PM on
Thursday, November 04, 2004
In your mind, picture an item that had accompanied you for a good long time of your Life. It can be anything, your smelly pillow, the Teddy Bear you sleep with at night, the hairbrush you kept since primary school (ewwww~). Imagine that for some dreadful reasons, they got lost, or worst, burnt by some unidentified maniac. It may be just a thing, but the feeling of loss is still there right?My faithful PC died on me last afternoon. Maybe I was pushing it to work too much. I don't know. Or maybe its life span was coming to an end. But it died on me. Never to be revived again.The system- chips whatever you call it, was burnt. The fan wasn't running anymore.
The best PC in the house. Gone.
I am going to make myself useful today. Make my feet walk out the door.
Feels like I haven't seen the Sun for the longest time. (Though it's been raining).
I am gonna get my Final Fantasy VIII today, by hook or by crook.
Beg, steal, borrow. I'll do it. Argh!*
Quote: "Oh,you're offering me the privilege of slapping on a thong and shaking my ass in your camera? Thanks. But I'll pass." [raw cut]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:45 AM on
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
2.55am
Old pain came back. The area was gripped by a clawlike force. Nearly bent over by the pain.
Hate it so much. I was ok. And just when I decided to stop going for anymore checkups, the pain came back. Been about 4 days already. Shucks. I hope I can hold on. Arhh.
I don't know whether I agree with the anti-piracy thing. Because poor folks like me just cannot afford to buy original CDs all the time. And I so badly want my Final Fantasy VIII, or the best, Final Fantasy X-II. I played my FFVII for probably the 50th time already, and I think it is time to explore new challenges. Nevertheless, I still love it. Old memories. Past glories are never forgotten. =)
My sleep timing has been horribly altered. From the usual 10pm to 7am, it is now officially 5am to 1pm. Ack. If school is tomorrow, I am so screwed. Haha.
Quote: "Like a dictionary, you add meaning to my Life." [edited]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:06 PM on
Monday, November 01, 2004
Nah, Ed, Im still straight. *chuckles*
Had a fun day being a Warrior Princess today.
Running from one building to another to protect
my carefully made-up face.
Not vain, but just that I don't wish to
go around in the city area with blue and black
liquid all over my face. =)
Spent $5 on an umbrella.
Watched Cellular.
Okay. Probably because of Chris Evans only. LoLx.
If I am to sum up the story, it would probably be..
Guy is a normal hunk on the beach.
Wants to get his ex back.
Phone rang.
A kidnapped woman on the other line.
Guy helps woman.
Guy saves the day.
Ex is impressed because now Guy is Hero.
Moral of the story: Do buy Nokia's latest handphones equipped with video recording. It may not just save the day, but save someone's life. *rolls eyes*
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
