At 11:59 PM on
Friday, December 31, 2004
[Typing this 1 minute before 2005...]
Here's wishing everyone a....
Sweet...
Fun-filled...
Love-bubbling...
Kick-ass...
2005!!!
May all your resolutions be fulfilled. =)
Love,Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:30 PM on
2004...... 2005...... 2006.... huh?
It is the last day of the year 2004. I went through so much and grew up so much throughout this year. I don't really know if I could classify it as great or depressing but I have tasted bits of happiness and sadness in moderate amounts. At certain points in the year, I felt as though I would rather die than continue living on such a miserable note. I had always believed Time will heal and I was right. I grew stronger through the months all the way til now. Constantly, I have to battle with my personal demons. I can only say that I am glad for all the mistakes that I made this year. Without them, I wont have played with fire, got burnt, and still survive, able to laugh with my friends.
Resolution!! Simple. 2004 ended on a happy note. For 2005 I resolve to be happy throughout the year! It is very easy to try to aim for success and be successful, but is it easy to say you were happy doing that? Sounds easy? Haha. I dont think so. What with stress, and issues that will never stop coming, but hey, let's just face them head-on and keep the lips graded on a curve eh? Cheers!!! Now, 2005, bring it on! =)
Is the end of the beginning or the beginning of the end?
Quote :: "You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love." ::
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:24 PM on
Thursday, December 30, 2004
One of a kind. I dont know if I should be narrating this. But I find this so fascinatingly strange that I think I should go ahead and type it anyway. In the afternoon, I had a call from a friend. Let's call him XXX. XXX is one of those who calls me often and he said that he would like to introduce me to his cousin, Is. He said his cousin is very very shy. I said ok. So the bugger came down, and dropped his cousin off at my house area. XXX left me and Is alone under the void deck to talk. It was strange. He was so nervous I felt scared and worried for him. It was damn cold, but he was perspiring! And when he talked to me, he kept wiping his face. And when I looked elsewhere, he kept looking at me. I kept asking if he was okay to which he said he was. I confessed to him that I think he is a drug addict. Because he was soooo pale and he was perspiring despite the coldness. That was odd.
Truth. The truth then came out. He has social phobia. He was trembling in front of me and I thought that was weird. He is 25 and never had a single girlfriend. He stayed at home after work. He switched courses in polytechnic because he could not talk to people. He asked how many ex-boyfriends I had. I told him. A few minutes later, he told me he was jealous. I was shocked. He was jealous because my ex-boyfriends could get intimate with me and he could not. That was scary. I learnt that he had this classified social phobia. And he had no friends. When I asked him to walk with me to the nearest MacDonalds, he shook with fear.
Quote :: "We perceive when love begins and when it declines by our embarrassment when alone together." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:41 AM on
Pepsi Cola. I am at home. Yes. Naughty me right? I am supposed to be Sukuna-ing my morning up til lunch time. But when I woke up in the wee hours of the morning, I was in terrible pain. Whoa man, my health is really like sliding down the mountain slopes. (Eww, stinky analogy) Erm. I wanted to come down for the afternoon classes but I think the best is to rest at home because apart frm the pain, my throat is very sore. A combination of inner tragedy.
Stupid politeness. These days, I am rather intrigued by this new technique that guys are using to "get closer to" or "woo" the girls that they are interested. This time, their new method is to appear polite by asking permission before they so called proceed on with their mission. Sick shit rite? Haha. Well, nice in the beginning as always... "evil and lazy" as days pass by.. Haha.. Fuckers. I thought everything was supposed to be natural? I guess this gives them a bit of credit so that at least they WERE polite before being "evil and lazy".
I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright with you
Cos you hold my secrets tight
Quote :: "Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition." ::
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:28 AM on
And at near midnight as well. Hoonie was with me when this happened. I was in the lift in Plaza Singapura, and my phone rang at 6.40pm. Private number. When I said hello, the bugger put down the phone. Apparently, someone likes hearing me say hello. Haha. And then, he/she/it puts down the phone immediately. When I checked my call register, I realised that this happens almost and always at the same timing. And occasionally it happens near midnight as well.. around 11.40pm. Weird huh? Or maybe someone wanted to talk to me but couldnt bring himself to. Whatever the case is, I hate mysteries. No, I am not really that irritated by the call and put down thing. I just wish the person will get it over and done with already. Haha. My friend, Hafiz, said that probably the person found my Hello seductive and hearing me say it made him horny enough to continue his business. That is so freaking sick, man!!! =X
Changi and the ash boys. I have no idea why famous 24 hour shops in Changi are left in the hands of ash boys at night. They cannot cook for nuts! I ordered some Honey Chicken Wing Rice, and I got half-cooked chicken wings. Yucks. The marination was also extremely terrible, a little bit of here and a lot there. It was not marinated properly too. It is however not really a good place for the eyes to feast as well. So, cancel Changi out if you want to have supper with your mates or family.
Quote :: "As the ocean is never full of water, so is the heart never full of love." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:22 PM on
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Chill pill. The weather is so cold and so comfortable that it is almost so natural to be lazying around in bed, or snuggling up in your blankets watching the telly. Ok. I am getting to be such a weirdass discussing the weather now but what the heck right. Wakakakaka. Ok, I am stressed! Hrm. This weather is better than the too-hot weather that send migraines right at my doorstep!
He who is still asking. You weird ass, just bugger off and be on your way to La La land because my status is as in Natasha Bedingfield's latest album. The distinction between being friends and lovers are very fuzzy now.
Corina. She is ... I dont know.. odd. She talks and then digresses into her own world of thoughts and then laughs them off. And all these happens in front of us. Argh! The world is getting weirder and worst everyday! What happens to those days of innocence?!
Quote :: "Never love with all your heart It only ends in aching" ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:20 AM on
[Now, now, don't think nasty.]
Danna. It is Tuesday morning. Science is at 2pm. I had planned to get out of my house by 10am. But right now, I am in this weird mood, like I don't give a shit about things and all I want to do is cry although I have no idea what I am going to cry over. I think I expected too much of myself. But I don't even know if that's the case because I don't think I actually set that much expectations for myself. Or maybe my helplessness in the current condition is making me feel so fed-up. I don't know. Here I am, thinking about 92319832 things when I know I can probably solve half of them. [pause] Reading back what I have written, even I cannot understand what the feck I was saying.
Literal Boycotting. I have done it. I want to set that world on cold icicles. In my world, there is only me, my friends and my family. Who gives a shit about the other part? I have been independent all my Life, what is there to fumble about. I can survive without the 19238129 things that others possess and can still smile at the end of the day when I go to sleep in my bed.
Dustbin. Maybe I shall scrap this entry. But then who cares anyway?
Quote :: "It was not a question of love.It was a question of a man" ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:22 PM on
Monday, December 27, 2004
[Haha. Yeah right.]
Today. I think I had the weirdest IT class ever. There were not any real lessons and then suddenly when I returned from the toilet, it was over. An hour early. That was weird. We did not even learn much except for a shorter than short introduction to Adobe Photoshop. =S Was Ah Pek in her right mind?
He who had been asking. He was probably the most persistent but I do not like it. Yet I treasure the connection although from time to time it appeared surreal to me. He is also... weird. Why does everything appear weird to me arh?
Love. Nothing hurts like it, eh? Yet human beings fall in love all the time. Because of one factor (as been said in a quote before), human loneliness. You can be the busiest girl or guy on Earth, with a hundred businesses strapped around your waist, your schedule filling up everyday of the week for major hours of the day but the heart still needs a companion. Fuck la. Dont tell me "NO" because at the back of your head, you know that you want that one person to hug you when everything is going downhill. Can a human being really be independent forever?
Quote :: "To let a fool kiss you is stupid, To let a kiss fool you is worse" ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:29 PM on
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Bitter Endings
Burrowed Heaven. I just returned home from yet another makeover session at Miyoko's house. Wakakaka. I need to congratulate myself, I must say. I took only about an hour plus to work on her eyes, face, and hair. After careful lining of the eyes and placing of the fake eyelashes, the end result was the fake eyelashes appeared dramatic and dolly without looking fake at all. I had lined the fake eyelashes perfectly on her original eyelashline. Edmund, who came later, even confirmed that he had to concentrate on her eyes to notice that it was actually fake. Hee Hee. And I made her hair looked like the 70s. Think beehive. I am satisfied with my art work. My reward other than satisfaction was a new mascara Maybelline Sky High Curves (haha), tuna sandwiches (hrm...), and chocolates (hehe). Anyway, I hope that she enjoys herself later. It is not often one has friends with such quirky indulgements. LoL.
Summer Sunshine. Sunday again. Which means another crap week to go through. And this means I have to enjoy whatever is left of my Sunday. I am out of here! Enjoy whatever is left of the weekend people! By the way, do you know that it is Boxing Day today? So, go box (punch) your enemies. You have a reason to do it today. =)
Quote :: "You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:32 PM on
Saturday, December 25, 2004
FOX. I simply love my FOX Sports Pants! It's red, has some sporty words on it, and is sooooo comfortable I can sleep in it. It makes me feel so sporty and lazy all at the same time. Haha. I love it. Im wearing it right now. Hee Hee. Yeah, okie, so I sound so bimbotic but who cares. A good buy remains a good buy. Whee!!!~ =)
ENO. It seems that my relationship with ENO has been further strengthened. We see each other almost everyday. And ENO makes my day cooler. Aint ENO great? I am getting to be so dependent on ENO. Everyone, please say Awwwwwww. =p
Quote :: "At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:15 PM on
Miyoko. That woman! *haiz* I went over to her house at about 11.20am, and started to work on her face, especially the eyes since those were the most important assets compared to the rest. And the occasion? Cosplay! Hrrmmff. And guess what? After her eyes, and figuring out what to do with the outfits and so on and so forth, by the time we stepped out of the house to go shopping and head for the movies, it was 3 pm! I had spent like 3 hours plus on her! Erk. Haha. But I am kind of okay with the work that I had done la. And she did look her part for the cosplay. Hope all goes well tomorrow for her. =)
Shopping. Shopping could have been fun-ner if I was not battling the fatigue of donning my high heels and also to escort Miyoko the bride who is suffering from feet blisters as well. Hahahakz. However! It was quite fruitful because I still managed to buy some tangible goodies such as Fox Sports Pants, earrings, etc. Yay. I am still thinking of that bracelet. Monday shall BE the day. =)
KungFu Hustle. Someone do a kungfu on me please. The highlight of MY day should be watching Stephen Chow today. But guess what? Me and Miss Bride went to ALL the cinemas in town and the show was a sellout everywhere! Wah wah wah wah.. our last try was Plaza Singapura. The nearest timings were "fullhouse" and the later show timings only have first row seats. -_-" I am so upset!
Quote :: "Desire, even in its wildest tantrums,Can neither persuade me it is love nor stop me wishing it were" ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:22 PM on
Friday, December 24, 2004
Eno and Me. The problem with not shampooing my hair is the acquirement of a head-pounding migraine the size of an elephant sitting on my head. Although I knew it was going to come anyway, I still stubbornly refused to shampoo my hair in the early morning. Well, I had been late after all, much to the displeasure of Ah Pek.
Holiday Laziness. One of the licences to be lazy lies in the season of the moment. Haha. It is just so illogical to be bent over books on a holiday season. That was the reason why I was late for IT. Haha. I had an internal debate with myself. To go or not to go? Then I remembered Dreamweaver. I remembered Flash. The way I remembered Sukuna. Shit.
Migraine again. I guess I have to take my leave from here. I need to entertain my guest up there. [points to head]
Quote ::"Love is for the strong of will and weak of heart"::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:46 PM on
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Surviving. At this present moment, I am hungry. Wait. Hungry is like understating the situation. I am famished! Erk. When I reached Sengkang, I was lucky I could still manage to drag myself home. Haha. So yeah. I am very hungry. I ate like a bird today, so do pardon my rather outspoken hunger. [For all you know, this is my stomach talking]. Hahaha. I think I can eat about 10 chickens or something.
Effective Communication. It was cancelled. Which gave us our first 3 hour break. I wanted to scream sia. It was better being in class. OMG. Did I just say it was better being in class? *gasps* In the library, we flipped through magazines and noticed the trend of sporting toothy grins in the models. Haha. That was weird. Oh, and did I mention that Advanced Speech Training made us all look like such cute little retards with our mouths open wide to make the accurate of accurate sounds? LOL. Now that is saying something.
Edwina. She is leaving for Bangkok soon, leaving us the rest of the mortals to rot in Singapore. Haha. Anyway, with what information you gathered from the other two, I hope at least you can make your Bangkok trip a blast! Haha. Pray hard la. =) Play hard, shop hard, girl. This may be your only time to do so. Bon voyage.
Quote ::"In love the paradox occurs that two beings become one and yet remain two."::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:37 AM on
So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Sometimes, I wish I can turn back time to undo my mistakes. But if I had not gone through them, I wont be this strong person I am now.
Quote ::"To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be"::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:53 PM on
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Ahhhhhh! Felt a bit better in the morning. Although I felt as though someone had truly drugged me throughout the night. I cant seem to be able to remember anything from last night. Hrm. Haha. I made THE trip to MCYS. Why THE, you may ask? Because! Because that is just one building that you have to make a very conscious effort of climbing up the hill just to get there. Just now, there was this guy in blue (''let's call him Blue") who was climbing up the hill together with me. Haha. We made a challenge as to who would reach the top first. Wakakaka. Two very bored people in the morning huh.
The Bazaar. I think I only briefly described the damn bazaar in yesterday's entry. Haha. Well, I think the music DJ was great. He was playing all the latest hits, and I enjoyed them way better than I did in any other bazaars. However, the bazaar also kind of sucked because the stalls seem unoriginal. Firstly, there were small stalls that seem to sell the same thing- earrings. There were no distinctive differences between the earrings sold and I am of the opinion that they should all just m e r g e. Wakakakaka. And there was this stall that imported Ambercrombie & Fitch skirts. That was weird. Nothing so A & F-ish about them. The bags were beautiful though, especially those straw kinds. Overall, I would give the Bazaar 2 out of 5 bites! Kwang kwang kwang.
Little Sukunas. I wish everyone who would be sukuna-ing their way tomorrow the best of the best of lucks. We all know what a killer she can be. Wakakaka.
Quote ::"The art of love ... is largely the art of persistence."::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:20 PM on
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Unsweetened coffee. It does not take away the fact that coffee still contains caffeine and does no justice to your health. Worst still, it is terribly bitter. It should just be named coffee shots. Highy concentrated coffee that makes you fall sick. There was a free flow of Coffee Nova earlier on at the bazaar. It sucked. That's it. It just sucked. I had three cups though, because I was too broke to afford myself a non-bitter cup of drink. Haha. Ok. The bazaar seemed boring though. Almost 3 out of 5 stalls sold earrings and accesorries. And a handful sold home-made cookies. Hrm.
Panadol Cold. Should I say thanks to these wonderful pills? Because I literally feel cold now. Haha. Maybe I was destined to fall sick. And I was lugging two insanely thick books around with me til I got home. So, that was probably the tick-off effect. Heheh. So, I am officially falling ill. =S
MCYS. I am making another trip down tomorrow morning. I really hope everything goes well this time. Having to go there each time I am supposed to be resting and slacking at home just irritates me. And having to endure the long ride there and the uphill climb... hrm!!!
Inspirators. I just want to say thank you to all my inspirators whether or not they know they have been an inspiration to me. What inspiration, you may ask. Well, that is for me to know. At least the inspiration to continue on living and loving my own Life and myself.
Quote ::"Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:43 PM on
Monday, December 20, 2004
Positively angelic. When I reached home, I felt nauseous, worn out and plain exhausted - both mentally and physically. Not to mention, I have a thumping headache and feverish flushes up and down my body. Thus, I have decided to have a long and relaxing bath. I scrubbed myself all over with my $150 Thermal Anti-Stress Spa Salt, which I bought during a certain phase of pure tears and fears, and used only occasionally for special occasions or dates. Following that I lather Lux Spa Soap all over myself. I shampooed my hair with my Herbal Essences, brushed my teeth with Darlie and washed my face with Nivea Visage. And I just finished spreading my Escada Body Lotion. I know I am mad. Those are what I only do for special outings. But I feel and smell good right now and I guess, seeing how completely sad and miserable my weekdays ahead will most likely be, I sure do deserve this. =)
There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me
Quote ::"Age does not protect you from love but love to some extent protects you from age."::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:03 PM on
No. Not aliens. The people at Macromedia are such geniuses. They have made Life so much easier for me. Of course, the steps to mastering the software itself is a killer. Haha. For instance, right now, Ah Pek is on Exercise 2 Step 7 and it seems as though she is on Exercise 10. Haha. Either the picture [in this instance, it is a dolphin] refuse to move or it moves in a straight line instead of "swimming" across the banner. LOL.
More blogging later. In the meantime, do tune into the Perfect Lamers at 29.9FM.
Quote ::"What goes around comes around, What goes up must come down"::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:43 PM on
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Butterfly into Modern Girl. In order to celebrate the birth of the shopper in me, I have decided to send my butterfly blog through another stage of evolution. Hahaha. Strange scientific exertion, I know. Heheh. Well, I dont care if I receive hate-mails or hate-tags for this blog appearance. If you dont like it, then lick my boots*. LOL.
Beautiful Sunday morning. Life seems so bright and cheery at the moment. I had breakfast at 9am for the first time in many days or months, even. Of course, the Pepsi Fire is still affecting me even after two days! Gosh, please please pleaseee... even though the Tata Young Pepsi Fire advertisement may be very vogue and posh, do NOT drink this extremely harmful drink! Unless you are searching for a good reason to skip school or work, that is. Haha.
Project EC coming up at 3pm. Poor me. No bangles. Someone stab me please.
Speaking of which, I need to mention the lameness of this old uncle that Hoon, Gillian and me ran into yesterday during our shopping trip. We were on our way to Far East and we were at the underpass from Orchard Mrt. The escalator was down so we had to climb up the stairs, along with just about a few hundred others. Heheh. And they were moving up so slowly. There was an old uncle behind us. He started grumbling, and snorting and smirking and then....
"Wahliew! So slow!"
"I told you not to do it last night right, stil want to do it!?"
"See? Now tired already!"
"Give too much power already la!"
"Faster! Faster!"
Uncle, that was very lame.
Quote ::"The best proof of love is trust"::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:34 PM on
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Initially, I wanted to type this entry tomorrow because I am oh so exhausted. But I decided to just type this anyway so I can bitch more tomorrow. LOL. I spent the whole of my afternoon and most of my night with Hoon, shopping. Gillian was with us until about early evening, and Aaron joined Hoon and me in the evening. Shopping is definitely tiring but it was definitely fun even though disappointments come in when you cannot find what you initially have in mind to buy. For instance, I was looking forward to purchasing more bangles. In the end, I ended up buying only some bottoms and stickers. Heheh. But I had a great lunch with the girls at about 3pm.
It was fun. There seem to be a lot of performances around today. At Far East Level One, there was the M1 promotion roadshow and there were many dances performed. At the other side of the Level One, there was the Hip Hop Convention where more dances were performed. Personally, and even Hoon agreed with me on this, the dancers from M1 were much more lively, energetic and power-packed. Good bodies and all. Basically, they were great la. The hip hop dancers who were supossed to exude more energy, just pale in comparison to the former.
The town area was packed. I was mostly bulldozing my way through. Haha. By the way, more shopping coming up next week. I hope to have a more fruitful shopping experience. I found some accessories and watches that I like but I felt like I should survey further. I think I am the choosiest among all lar. LOL. Hoon is like complaining I didnt spend much. Hrmmmmm. Oh. I am adding Spongebob the Movie onto the list of movies I want to watch. I am so gonna be broke.
OoOooOOooOo.. now I see why I had such an unfruitful shopping experience today. I ran into the Undesirable earlier before I started shopping. Erk. -_-
Here I go
Scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
You are my Only One
I let go
But there's just no one
Who gets me like you do
You are my Only One
My Only One...
*sighs*
Quote ::"I don't want to live,I want to love first,And live incidentally." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:01 PM on
Friday, December 17, 2004
Word of the day has got to be Lame. The number of times the girls said "Lame" today or show the infamous handsign has got to be at its peak today, that even strong and muscular-bodied Brad Pitt would lose the abilities of his good fine legs. Speaking of which! Ocean's Twelve is beckoning to me, to feast my eyes on the fine movie. And I have not even watched Without A Paddle, and here I am planning to watch KungFu Hustle! KungFu Hustle starring Stephen Chow, is a must watch, simply because he is in it la! Heheh. It has been a good many years since I have watched his movie sia! Have I mentioned that Meet the Fockers is on my list of movies to watch as well? This is breaking my back manz.
Module of the day is IT Lecture. This is only because the lecturer was talking to herself for the entire hour. Hahaha. Now, that is cute. She was so enthusiastic about whatever she was trying to lecture that it threw us all off. I cannot even remember a single thing she said. *ponders* Hrmm.. I think she did say Louis Vuitton. Did she?
Drink of the day has got to be Pepsi Fire! It lived up to the word fire well. I was sitting in the living room of Bellie, when she presented me with this glass of purplish red drink. She told me to taste it- Pepsi's new taste. I was of course, all game to try. Haha. The first taste sent my face scrunching up. It was like Pepsi + Chilli put together! Argh! It set my empty stomach on FIRE! My stomach was burning! Wahliew. That was one lame drink manz.
Quote ::"In the confusion we stay with each other, happy to be together, speaking without uttering a single word."::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:21 PM on
[In Holland Village]
Have you done your deed for the day?
Have you ever felt that urge to show compassion for the needy?
Have you ever wanted to be the Saint?
Have you ever helped a friend in need?
Have you at least thought about it but have no idea who to help and what to do to help that friend?
I have the answer.
At level 2 of this particular building in Holland Village (where Cold Storage is), there is an open shop of accessories. There you will see an array of interesting accessories. There is this black bracelet, shiny like sequins there. It costs about 10 bucks. Do purchase it and send it to me. I shall help send it to the needy one. (Heheh)
If you are feeling unsually and exceptionally wealthy, there are other colors that the bracelet come in. Blue, purple and pink are nice colors. *wink*
Do your part for the community.
Quote ::To live is to love::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:00 PM on
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Advanced Speech Training is fun! I love it. Haha. Because I get to talk, and decode- I feel like some old researcher decoding ancient Egyptian scripts, although it is only phonetics la. I didn't know that the English Language goes beyond just writing. Even speaking has its proper ways. There are protocols to speaking English. Haha. It's all fun. Although I cannot imagine doing decodings for French, for instance. Heheh. Effective Communication is fun too. We get to discuss about people stranded on 2 different islands, and one girlfriend slept with one of the guys she is stranded with so that she can be with her boyfriend on another island. There you have it. What is happening to the normalcy of classes? Here we are discussing sluts, pimps, jerks, and egomaniacs. Tsk tsk.
I am currently waiting for my mother to prepare herself so that we can go out and have dinner. Apparently mommy dearest is still cooking for daddy dearest. And I am not in the mood for dinner at home today. For some strange reason la.
Going shopping with the girls on Saturday. Heheh. On the way to LT, I was listening to the radio. There was this discussion about whether it was better to be a girl or a guy. Most prefer being a guy to get out of PMSes and NS. But majority uses "shopping" as the perfect reason to be a girl. Haha. Whatever concept you are, hip hop, punk, rocker, bimbo, kuniang... shopping is still pleasure. Right? =) *winks*
Ed, I still crave for that bracelet at Holland Village, not to mention that butterfly tanktop. But my feet are too lazy to move there. Haha. Sad.
Quote ::"Love is born of faith,Lives on hope, And dies of charity." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:31 PM on
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
This week's slack days have been wasted with makeup classes, rendezvous with She-Devil, and not to mention the wasted trip to that building* on the hill. That last part made me groan a bit as no matter which bus stop you alight at, you will have to climb up the hill. I realised it was considerably much faster going back down the hill. *Duh*
Anyway, I had Psychology earlier. *Ehem* It was interesting. The whole idea of classifying. More like name-labelling. I think it is true. People tend to speak without thinking that the words that are spouted out of their mouth can hurt. The tongue is mightier than the sword. Words can cause more damaging hurt than physical lashes. But there is something I do not agree, which is to replace the way you say certain things. I mean, for instance, a group of friends calling this one girl "horizontally challenged" instead of "fat" thinking that the former would sound much more indirect and polite. But in my own personal opinion, they should just shut up. That girl is not exactly that dumb not to know they were trying to be polite. The thing about people is that, they do not want to know the concealed raw fact because it hurts, but they are curious about it anyway. And it still hurts even if you place layers of compliments on top of that very concealed insult. Anyway, these are just my thoughts that were running through my head during the whole class anyway.
Love certainly is in the air these days ar. To me, Love can make you feel like the World's Best Conqueror, and then make you feel like complete SHIT too. According to Har, being in the middle is the worst.. that would be fucked up. Haha*. Neither here nor there. That hurts worst. But I am at one of my happiest phases right now. So, I hope nobody fucks that up. Hahakz. I am going shopping on Saturday!! Yippee. Now, lets all pray that nobody cancels. -_- (ala Ed)
And I am constantly haunted by the thought of that black bracelet in Holland Village. I must get myself a Sugar Daddy manz!!
Application for Sugar Daddy starts now. LoL*.
Quote ::"The cure for all ills and wrongs, the cares, the sorrows and the crimes of humanity, all lie in the one word 'love.''::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:29 AM on
Perfect 10 98.7FM is being sabotaged by this guy who is filling in for Carrie Chong who has apparently gone on a holiday leave. Darren Tan.. or isit Darren Lim? He really cannot be a DJ lar. He is Mr Smooth, Mr Ladies' Man, but not DJ Man!!! Lucky he is filling in for Carrie in the Late night Show only. Firstly, he keeps making pronunciation mistakes. Then, he speaks so fast. Thirdly, whenever a caller calls in, he sounds as if he doesnt want to talk to them AT ALL. Or he gives very pathetic grunts about the things that they have to say. For instance...
Darren: Hi. Who's this?
Caller : This is John.
Darren: So, who's the message for?
Caller : I want to say Happy Birthday to Carrie Chong.
Darren: Oh that's sweet.
Caller :Yes, since she's away on holiday.
Darren: What do you like about her?
Caller :She is very nice and friendly.
Darren: Oh that's why she won the radio personality.. award.. friendly or something right.
[This is stupid. I felt irritated. How could he not know?! Erghh]
Caller: I also want to dedicate the song to my girlfried, Pauline.
Darren: Oh that's sweet.
Caller :And to you.
Darren : How nice.
[Very erk.]
There was even this one point where he wanted to put on this trailer, and it didnt work. So his breathing was all that was audible. On national radio! Wahliew. Tsk~ And he had this really sleepy voice that could also qualify as sleazy. Argh! I am irritated by this freelancer. I wish he would go away and Carrie Chong, come back faster lah. This guy is eroding Perfect 10's good name.
A very long night. My mobile kept ringing the whole night. One after another. After tucking into my mother's yummilicious food, I met my buddy at a nearby mall. We had a good chit chat. And even touched on the "Guys are sick bastards" issue. LoL. And he is a guy. Haha. Went to visit Ahmad later. Reached home close to 1am. Tired but night was somehow well-spent.
Slacking days are coming to an end.
Quote ::"The more you love, the more you can love, And the more intensely you love." ::
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:59 PM on
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Heheh. I love controversial titles. Wait, in fact if that statement actually bewilder you, I feel so sorry for you. Because gay is also synonymous with being in a state of joy. Look at how straightlaced the thinking of the society has become. At one look, all thought gay=gay. I am tired. In fact, on the bus home just now, I was a little quiet. Although the day hardly drained me out, I felt unusually exhausted. Heheh. When I got home, I was very hungry. And there was no instant gratification for my mother was torned between cooking or not cooking. But I managed to convince her to cook. And she did. Her own unique Nasi Lemak. Seriously, my mother should be a chef. Her cooking is fantastic!!
Okay. Grocery Time. Meeting friend later. Sighs... How I wish I can sigh away all my troubles as well.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:10 AM on
Monday, December 13, 2004
If you guys have not seen the Miss Digital World of 2004, do take a look. She is really gorgeous. Exuberant without being too busty or too skinny. Really sweet. Okay. I am blogging this on a late Sunday night. 11.55 to be exact. But so as not to seem to kiasu about blogging 4 times in a day, I shall act as if I am blogging this 5 minutes into Monday, the 13th of December. Haha. Okay. So. Talking about cats... I was on the way home just now and ran into yet another neighbourhood cat. The unique thing about this cat is that it has a black mark design thingy above its mouth, so it seems as if the cat has a moustache. I was so intrigued. Every cat in my neighbourhood is amazing. Haha. LoL. I am like the ultimate cat fan now. Of my neighbourhood ones anyway. Okay okay. So, I talked to a friend earlier on about the one who has gone on. He told me to take it easy. Relax. Time will heal and will show me everything. He said God will not let good ones suffer. Good human beings are meant for good things. Bad ones are meant for bad things. I really wish it was so. Sighs. I dont know. See how..
I dont want another handsome face
I dont want just another one to hold
I dont want my love to go to waste
I just want you and your beautiful soul
Quote [["We all suffer from the preoccupation that there exists ... in the loved one, perfection." ]]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:09 PM on
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Sunday. Lovely weather. Bittersweet memories. I saw one of the most amazing things ever. Right in front of my eyes, I saw this black and white cat that I really like eating leaves in my garden. Cat. eating. leaves. At first I thought I was hallucinating because I was looking out my window so I thought maybe my vision was blur. Maybe it was munching on bubble gum or something. LoL. But noooOOoOoo.. when I looked closer, it really was eating leaves. And looked delighted eating them actually. Haha. I am amazed. I told Eddy that maybe the cat is vegetarian. Or it has decided that it needs fibre after munching on fishes or other cat food lar. No wonder the cat has clean fur. It eats vegetables! So, take note, friends, munch on more vegetables. Those green leafy ones, to get good skin okay! Hahaha.
I want to go Bali. I want to go Greece. I want to go Thailand and eat fried mosquitoes. I want that black bracelet in Holland Village. I want more chill-out sessions with my buddies. I want my own Macromedia Dreamweaver MX 2004 CD. I want more sandals and more rough-and-tough Tshirts that I can just grab and wear to that mental institution. I want hair treatments. I need and want Dan. I want to watch more movies. I want more bracelets. I want I want I want! LoL.
My brother is kinda sad. His teacher in college died along with his wife while on their HONEYMOON. They were involved in some accident involving a lorry as well. Now I hate lorry drivers. -_- The teacher really assisted my brother in so many ways that my brother is truly indebted to that guy. The teacher even assisted my brother in financial ways, treated him to lunches and stuffs. I feel sad as well. *sighs* Why do such angels come into our lives and go away just as fast huh.
Quote [["Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never."]]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:30 AM on
Who cares if this is the second blog entry within 12 hours! I am in need of an outlet to channel my emotions. Talking takes too much energy. I guess blogging is the other way lar. Some times I think blogging is like talking to yourself. To note down all the thoughts running through your head, along with all that you are feeling. Then when you read back what you have written, sometimes certain things seem much clearer. For instance, right now, the JB FUCKER is clearly a DICKHEAD WITH BRAINS THE SIZE OF IKAN BILIS. That is one confirmed fact too. My mother and father stayed in JB the whole night, much thanks to the BASTARD. And my mother sms-ed me this morning, telling me to take care of the house, and that she is not going to work today [much thanks to the BASTARD again] so that she can comfort my dad who cried over the loss of his motorcycle. Of course, much thanks to the BASTARD AGAIN!!! It hurts me to think how sad my dad is now. The bastard surely got no mother and father one lar!! That motorcyle is like my a best friend to my dad. It is one of his buddies. It gets him to everywhere he wants to go. I thought JB isnt that big. Why cant the BASTARD just steal a bicycle or something!!! Didnt it occur to him that motorcycles run on oil and THAT requires money which HE CLEARLY DOESNT HAVE!!! What makes him think that he can AFFORD to maintain the bike!!! I bet once he got no money, he shall sell it away. THE FUCKING BASTARD. That bike did not only serve my dad. It served my mom- to send her to work and go out with my dad. It served my brother- when he had to go to school for his A levels. It served me- when I was rushing to hand in my assignments at tight timelines, and for school as well. It did me great service. And this one FREAKING BASTARD had to STEAL. Just had to. To irritate the shit out of my ENTIRE family. I wonder how many lives he has made difficult other than my family. The fucker.
Wah wah wah... I am sorry lar the entry is decorated with vulgarities. But I am so cheesed. I dont want to verbally say those words. The above is my heart and head thinking. LOL. Ahah.. Sunday alas. Why does the weekend fly by so fast! Hate it Hate it. This weekend should fly by the slowest!!! Erk. *sighs* And I am still in love. Just with the wrong guy. Haha.
Quote [["We are all born for love. It is the principle of existence, and its only end."]]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:40 AM on
KNN.. FUCKER SIA THAT BLARDY ASSHOLE THIEF!!!
This is a rather uniquely cheesed off entry because some dumb ass in JB. I say it again.. some DUMBASS FREAKINGLY RUDE NO-JOB LOSER has taken off with the MOTORCYCLE rightfully belonging to my DAD! The FUCKER of a thief! So uneducated, no certificates, cannot find job, then become nuisance to society and now, a threat to foreign visiting human beings right!!! I bet, this loser take off with the motorcycle, change the license thingy, the color and all so that even a legal notice cannot identify it. FUCKER sia! Now how the fuck will my dad go to work!!! That is one of the most essential must-haves in HIS LIFE!!! YOU DUMB FUCKING DUCK ASSHOLE LOSER WITH BRAINS AS SMALL AS THE SIZE OF MY WHITEHEAD!!! Your country sells motorcyles at really low costs, still must take away others things isit!!! It is freaking losers like these that just smear the good name of their own country. There I was thinking that state got some future lar. Now, I retrieve every good thought about it. FUCKER! Now, if I am late, my dad cannot send me also because there is NOTHING for him to send me on!!! How about it ar!!! Loser, if you are married and you have kids you need to send and you got no way to send them, how you feel ar! How will they feel!!! Fucker!! You know what time isit now! It is a fucking12.30AM! And they cannot go home, because they have nothing to go home on!!! They are still there in JB!!! At such a late hour!!! If that fucker with unwashed skin ever get caught, I so want to be there and cut off his dick!!! See how he can function without his ESSENTIALS!!! Loser, I really wish you kena accident and die a horrid death where your guts got smashed and your head is flattened under the lorry, or for guilt to torment your entire Life because its a HUGGGGEEE SIN TO STEAL!!! Dont you know that if you live in the Arabic states, you will lose your hand for stealing!!!! Idiotic thief. I really wish you cannot have a nice doze forever, even if you stay alive. Die, Die, Die!!!
Quote [["To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead." ]]
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:31 PM on
Saturday, December 11, 2004
I have bad memories. I have very beautiful memories. Both hurt. But I am not sure which one hurts more. Or does it hurt to realise that you really have fallen in love only when that one human being has gone away.
First Saturday for the next 15 weeks. And maybe, the only one Saturday that can be used to laze around. I cannot imagine the white hairs growing on my head in subsequent weeks. The weather today was lovely. In the Northeast, it was all sunny sunshine. As I took on the 2 hour bus ride to the West side, it began to rain horribly. My denim jacket did not do me any justice. Haha. The cold was like icicle stabbing through the jacket to my skin. Oh anyway, I watched Mean Girls and Thirteen Going On Thirty. Ok-Ok lar. Maybe if you just want girly shows with no sense, they do quite finely. Haha*.
Took 106 down to town, because initially I wanted to meet someone. But then, I dismissed the idea. There was a gig at Dhoby Ghaut station there. It was kind of cool. The entire notion of it, I mean. The guys jamming were also good. They seem to know their stuff. More music than noise, I see.
Oklah. Dont want to blog further. Damn tired. Been thinking too much today.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:30 PM on
Friday, December 10, 2004
Memories remain. Beautiful as they are, stagnant in my mind. Like the sweet smell of fragrance, it hangs around. Maybe because they are new. No fragrance lasts forever. I shall wait for that day then.
The whole week was fine. I swore it was. Until I got to the last one hour of today. Not just me, but the entire 40 odd girls and guys were silent as she gave the ultimatum slowly yet gleefully. I swear my heart was literally hurting and felt heavier as she continued talking. I cannot believe the shit my entire batch has to go through this time around. It is insane, at its maximum. Now I know why darling IT lecturer said this is the worst. When I looked through the other 25 odd assignments, I thought they are still manageable. But the last hour of the week gave me a good shock. I felt as if someone threw cold water on my face. Heheh. Good luck to my dear fellow soldiers!
Tmrw! Movie time! Although not at the theatre lar. Home-made comfort. Haha. I need bracelets sia. I am running out of them!!! I can only get my favourite one at Holland V in about 2 weeks time. I feel soooo strawberry-sundaed about it. I want it now! Argh! Gonna enjoy my first un-holiday Saturday.. maybe its the only one I can ever enjoy in these 15 weeks. GRrRrrRRrr..
I still hear... I love you, Ana.. each time I close my eyes to rest.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:03 PM on
Thursday, December 09, 2004
When I got home, I decided that I need to blog. I just need to vent. I no longer care if people read this blog and know certain things. Wait, actually there is about 98% of my Life that is not written here. Obviously. I have to let all my feelings out right now. I miss him awfully. In the worst way possible. Very badly in fact. I am not exaggerating.. that I am certain that of all years of past relationships combined, I miss him the most. I would give anything, just about anything, risk my Life, shed blood or kill just to have him to come back, to hear him call me at night, and tell me that nothing will harm me as long as he is around. I want to feel his warm embrace that is just so secure. I dont know if I should blame myself. I felt as though I had contributed to everything that has happened. But I know, if he is here, he would tell me, No sayang.. "dont suppress anger, dont suppress sadness.. I want you to be happy, not someone filled with hate." He would, wont he? That was how he was. He was always so calm, the picture-perfect serenity one can only imagine. If the seas were chaotic, and he was in the middle, he would be standing tall amongst the storms. If I was crying, I just needed to hear him tell me "stop crying" and I would. He would say the simplest things and I would still smile. Just hearing him laugh made me laugh. I loved making him laugh. It was one of the beautiful sounds on Earth. When he wanted to ask for a kiss, it was like a little child asking for a chocolate from a stranger. Shy yet daring. He was almost blushing. When I couldnt fall asleep, he would try to put me to sleep. When I told him the past has scarred me, he told me.. his judgement of me being someone loving, caring, tender, kind, sweet and pampering will never go wrong. Like untapped resources. He was hurt before, and he knew how it was to have a trust betrayed completely. Both of us felt it was so miraculous that we found each other. I asked.. "why couldnt we have met earlier? I wont have to suffer so much then.." He told me, "Sayang, the past hurts yet it teaches us to appreciate the present and the future. If we met earlier, we wont be the same as we are today." He was so soft, so tender yet so strong and so level-headed.
Reliving these memories will not bring him back. At night, I lay in my bed, confused and lost, broken inside. In the day, those I-miss-you pangs will come to haunt me. But all I do is smile it away or laugh it off. Even in the day, the jokes we shared, and use to tease each other still make me smile or giggle to myself. At other times, it brough fresh waves of pain upon me. I wonder if what Hoon and me had gathered about him was right.. was he here to tell me that there really is real Love out there? Was he here just to tell me that I am still capable of being loved for who I am and not what others want me to be? Was he here to show me that despite all the chaos and the destruction around me, there is still purity and hope? Why did he bequeath me with these absolutely beautiful memories just to have them short-lived?
I dedicate this to Dear*, in his loving memory:
Setiaku padamu
Tiada habis terlayani
Pengabdian janjiku
Segala ingin tercukupi
Aku jatuh cinta
Takdir aku hidup denganmu
Pengertian cinta
Sepanjang umurku
Aku jatuh cinta
Hidup ini indah keranamu
Menjalani cinta sehati denganmu
Nikmat semua waktu
Bila adamu menyayangku
Segala indah dirasa
Yakin abadi kisah kita
Tiada takut diriku bila
disampingmu
ingin selalu selamanya bersamamu
Ingin kau ada di sini
Menemani aku..
Of course I know that these are memories that I can only keep, and not hope to have them relived. And I know I must continue treading my footsteps on this Earth. I must, musnt I? I am sure he would want the same from me.
And aaa*, whoever you are, you suck too. Consume what you defecate and d-i-e.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:44 PM on
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
When I reflect upon whatever that is happening to my friends, with the exclusion of religious laws of course, I feel as though the rise of lesbianism is completely justified. Remember what I went through with this one jerk? Yes. It seems to be replicating itself somewhere else as well. Just in varying degrees. I cannot understand why is it that once the guy in the relationship feel freaking lonely and neglected, he is "pushed" into the arms of another girl? I mean, comeon, before the relationship, you were by yourself, so "lonely and neglected" should be normal already right? And what are friends there for? Are you that pathetic such that you can only depend on your girlfriend for companionship? Or are you that desperate to fuck someone or to make out that you cannot blardy wait for your girlfriend to be free and spend time with you? I think "feeling as though i am pushed" into the arms of another person is just plain stupid. We are humans created to communicate. So, you can always talk it out. After all, compromising doesnt hurt, does it? And excuses like "I was caught in the moment" dont make sense either. Usually, people who are "caught in the moment" WANTS to be caught in that exact precise moment. For instance, a girl goes out with a guy, and their last stop was to sit by Boat Quay. Hello, by the time you reach Boat Quay, it's dark, cold and serene. You know something will happen. You KNOW it. So usually "caught in the moment" issues are pre-empt situations. Then when it happens, the guy goes "Oh Oh! I cheated on my girlfriend! How? How?" Stupid ass right? Then "caught in the moment" turns into "perfect excuse to say Bye Bye" to the poor unsuspecting girlfriend.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:05 PM on
Monday, December 06, 2004
In the best class of the year. IT also known as Idling Half the Time class. For instance, right at this moment, while darling Mrs Pek is telling us about Dreamweaver MX 2004, Adobe Photoshop and Premier, I am blogging away. Heheh. Okay lar. I must pay attention. IT is important! Heheh. And welcome back Eddy! Although you ate mutated Big Breakfast, you seem quite alive. LoL. Hehe. Jet-lagging still uh. *smiles*
I shall get my bracelet at Holland Village! Hah~
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:20 PM on
Sunday, December 05, 2004
[I am sorry]
I should not have used the word "Tragedy" for yesterday's entry topic. I felt as though I was cursing someone. I could not sleep last night as I was feeling uneasy. I fell asleep eventually. And that was about 2am. I had a dream involving Ash. I wish it was a dream. It was nightmarish, in fact, and I was jolted awake. Looking at my watch, I noted that it was only about 3 am plus. I had a dream within an hour of sleep. I tried to recall what the dream was about, but I could not. And I could not get back to sleep either, so I listened to my radio. At 4 am, I received an SMS. Instinctively, I knew the SMS was gonna bring bad news. Indeed I was right. Ash was involved in a road accident on the way back from JB. Broke his right arm. Badly. His sister was the one who sent me the msg. I was very worried. And very guilty. If only I had allowed Ash to come down to my place last night, he wont have been in that very spot where his accident occured.
I am really sorry. Erk.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:38 PM on
Saturday, December 04, 2004
Look at the date.
Is there anything more I can say.
Love kills.
Love heals.
Tolerance is everything.
Until it leads you to total
dumbness.
So dont be dumb,
and choose the right direction
for you to take your
Life in.
Advices given
can be suggestions
But decision must be yours
Only.
Sometimes what a million
disagree on
may be the best thing
you ever chose.
[[Quote]] "Love built on beauty, soon as beauty, dies."(John Donne)
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:39 PM on
Friday, December 03, 2004
Eddy is in Genting Highlands. I wonder if she is having great fun down there, while I rot away what is left of my holidays. Heheh. Aha, which reminds me. Eddy has a daddy who looks at least 10 years younger than what he really is. Amazing huh. When I first met him, I thought he was the brother instead.. until I recalled that her brother is much younger than her. Hrm. A very envious achievement I think, to look so much younger than your age. I think the one who beats all records.. is my Aunt Lin. She is gorgeous. Really gorgeous. Freakingly gorgeous. High cheekbones. Eyes that shine. Smooth skin. Smile that can melt the most stubborn of hearts. She has a daughter who is the same age as Eddy, and is in a tertiary institute as well. She is only 40 but she can even lie that she is 22 and everyone will believe her. She looks even much more beautiful than her young daughters! And from me, that is saying something. Some women can be really lucky huh..
I am so bored. I dread the next two days. And this headache makes it worst. Ack.
Quote >>"The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved -- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves."<<
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:55 PM on
Thursday, December 02, 2004
I love slacking. Maybe that can be my new hobby, although it involves doing mostly mindless nothings. I can just lie down and daydream of a feast, or owning a few Hayabusas, a bit of Ferraris, three mansions, two malls, and a few other assets. Ok. That was too much. Something that remains a dream lar hor. Haha. Okie lar. But I do intellectual slacking okay! I abuse my
game station, and I work on strategy methods to win the missions. I read- I learn new words. I lie down- my body learns to rest. Ok, over-rest. I cook, so I learn to make food tastier and more digestible. Hahaha. I walk around the malls all over the country. I learn and see new girls and guys everyday. So my brains still work. Hahaha.
My day today was... okay. Nothing fantabulous about it. I slacked til about 3 in the afternoon when my stomach was holding some major concerto in there. Hahahkz. So I went out and had lunch. On the way back, guess who called! Hoonie! Back from Thailand! All fresh and untanned! I think I should just slay myself. She makes Thailand sound like Russia in Winter. Hahahaha. Meeting her in a few days so she can whine to me about her sad travel. Hahahaha. Sorry, Hoonie. And thankie for the sandals k dearie! Haha*. Although the color isnt a favourite of mine. Wait, Brown is a color right. Haha, its the thought that matters! Yea Yea. So thank you girl. Eh.. correct size or not! *Rolls on the floor, laughing* Joking~.
K. Im gonna be solving one very essential matter in a few hours. Wish me luck and all the joys in the world. And may I have a very beautiful dream. Nightmares have worn me out too much.
Quote >>"For those who love... time is eternity.."<<
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:51 PM on
Enough of this obsession, Anna! Erk. You are forgetting your own oath to yourself. How could you! Remember it is only just gonna be you, your buddies, your friends, your family. Where has this addition come from, Anna! Why is this addition sending your emotions and mind into mega on-the-world-drive! Why, Anna! Remember the hurt that bound you before! Remember the endless tears that came when it was all shitty and unjustifiedly unfair! Remember that man who made you feel so alive but left you dead in the end! Remember that guy who lifted you so high in the skies and then made you fall all the way back down onto Earth all by yourself! Do you want to go through that again! Damn, must you be so weak, girl! Just say NO NO NO!
*****************
Danny seems different.
When he smiles, it brings shine in his brown eyes.
Like light that brightens a dark room.
I have never seen such beauty.
And when he gives affection, it is overflowing.
I have never seen such.
And when he chants my name, it feels like the most natural thing in the world.
I have never known such.
I feel almost... loved.
I want to say YES YES YES!
Tell me if that is wrong.
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:32 AM on
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
I just cannot believe it. I was so certain that it is Tuesday. Until I read my own blog. Erk.
Anyway, I made my way into JB today. I was actually quite lazy about going there. But I thought, it beats rotting at home anyway. I made the right decision. Hehe. I enjoyed fantastic food and they do not cost much. The difference between food in JB and in my own country is that.. while the former does not want their fellow citizens to starve, the latter is serving food servings smaller than the size of the dollar notes. Not that the diet-stricken country bloody wants more stuffing, but hey, there must at least be value for money invested!
The farnie thing is, I cannot seem to find much difference between the guys here and the guys there. Their fashion statement is so similar they are almost the same. LOL. Ah! I must mention that I am so seduced by this guy who SEWS! I was in one of the malls, walking around aimlessly, while waiting for my mother to choose the magazines she wish to get, when I ran into this store. Said boy, dressed like any guy here, with that trucker hat, using the sewing machine! You tell me how often we can see such things here. Haha. And he was so diligent about it. Woohoo. But of course, he made me realise how useless I am as a woman. Hahahahakz. He seem to sew better than me! Oh well, it IS his job after all. *winks*
By the way, TAUFIK WON! Yes ar. He totally outshone Sylvester. I had this feeling the latter was overwhelmed by the star quality that Taufik was exuding. Hahahaha. At last, talent counts for something... and justice do exist in this small world! Yes ar! Taufik, you go rawking on orite!
I am so tired. I just want to lie down now, and dream of joyful magical things that can only exist in dreams. Life is too real to be beautiful.
-Danny*
Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
