At 12:15 PM on
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
{*} Emoz. I just feel like typing this. Yesterday while I was having a less-than-peaceful breakfast, my mother received a call from my Aunt who informed her that my grandfather is very ill. For a long while, Time just stalled. This is my grandfather, emmit! One of the greatest men alive! One of my best loves! Abandoning everything, I went home, refreshed myself and headed to his house which was all the way in the West. But the journey seemed so short, suddenly. When I reached there, I was shocked to see the shrunken state he is in. For a man so strong, so wise and so intellectual.. he no longer could read because he lost half his vision. And he is a religious teacher. Imagine not being able to read your entire roomful of books. And talking was difficult for him because his lungs hurt.. so breathing cause pain too. I sat by his side the whole day and whole night. There was twice I caught him crying. I had to be strong to hold in my own tears. In the end, he told me to go home. There was a bit of argument here with him and Aunt, so I went home, sad and exhausted. Maybe nobody can understand what I am going through here, but this man here is more important than everything else in my Life.
........................................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:17 PM on
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Remember them? I <3 them, still. Put aside the grossness. Think literature.
{*} Happyness. Imagine my surprise and delight when I entered this shop in Bugis Village, and there is a collection of Happy Tree Friends shirts. Yippee! 2 for $24. It is a rather good bargain, actually. But, me keeping to my budget.. oh well.. have to let them go. But hey, the owner who chose to sell them is one gorgeous hyper lady. And if someone like that can appreciate the beauty of Happy Tree Friends, why not the normal people huh? What is so gross about the shows anyway? Some people say it is disguisting even before watching a single episode. Don't judge a book by its cover, or so they say, but people are only paying lip service. I laughed in some episodes, even.
{*} White. When I was ordering my dinner in BK at Raffles Place, a bunch of White skaters rolled in. One guy came next to my counter to order... wait, demand his order. He took off the stand-up menu and showed the cashier. He then asked if there were coupons.. but he could not describe so he snatched a tray's cover and showed it to the cashier. He bought only two burgers.. and any wise peep would know just the burger is expensive. He slammed the tray and said, "I paid like 10 bucks for this shit?!" He then slammed the straw container because no straws came out. He then walked off. Urgh. How rude.
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I need to change the rules
Because I can't lose
- Natalie I. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:07 PM on
Saturday, April 23, 2005
{*} Sprained foot. My left foot is twisted. And it is damn painful to walk. But I have to. I cannot run away from obligations. So, I still went out carrying out myduties, meeting friends while limping on my right foot. There were times (many, that is) that I had to walk on both. I indulged in internal screaming.
{*} With my ladies. Met the girls for a chillout session at boat quay. Very pleasant experience. Although of course, I almost choked on my Virgin Mary. The tabasco sauce in the drink was a bit too much. It nearly burnt my lips. And then I had my drink changed to Shirley Temple. As usual, loads of stories to tell, laughters to share. The interior was very nice, and superbly relaxing. It was very funny because we did loads of stupid things in there as well. Then we headed to this place. Err... I would rather not mention it. *winks.
.............................. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:48 PM on
Friday, April 22, 2005
{*} tsk. With due respect, I find that love in becoming an increasingly abused term these days. Nobody seem to know the true beauty of it and most fail to appreciate. What makes it worst are sex-hungry men who use LOVE as a tactical strategy. Yesterday, I had witnessed this as a 3rd party. I walked out of the shower room and saw this cleaner lady talking to herself.. 30 seconds later, she appeared to be praying to the mirror. Now, that sight from a good one metre away was scary ok! And then, she looked at me as I applied my makeup. She asked me, "If you really like a guy, will you go to a hotel if he ask you to?" I was stunned. The first words forming in my head were "F*cking bastard". Then I said "No, if the guy loves you and respects you, he will never bring you there." And then she told me that she really like and love this guy who is apparently her boyfriend of 6 months. The best part is, they have only gone out twice so far. And I asked her, why can't it be just a simple movie or dinner or something nice like that? She then told me that, "He doesn't like that. He like making love." Now there you have it. Like making love. And hello~ Making love is a term for two people who are really in love making out and having sex. Not for some perverted psychotic idiot like that. I digress. Hrm. Then she started asking me and my friend to pray for her that the guy will not leave her. She had this really hopeful expression on her face. She even told me, "I can lose anything.. but not this man."
I wanted to just shake her and tell her that the guy is not worth it, but all I could manage was "No man is worth dying for.. and if this doesn not work out, there are better men to take care of you." Of course, being in love and all, she refused to see that. What sealed the whole thing was, when she told me that if she dont want to go to the hotel this weekend, he will change his handphone number. What the??!!! I shall pray.. but not for them to be happy together.. but for the guy to wake up his ideas. She is just one simple and naive girl who is searching for love. And her first love- this man.. gives Love a bad name. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:07 AM on
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
{*} Super Morning Glory. Is it Wednesday morning already? :) Wow. Another day to the... revelation of the Truth. I shall be switching off my hp throughout Wednesday night til Thursday noon. In any emergency, please put it on hold. I sure do not want a repeat performance of my last semester where the handphone vibrated under my butt and I read the Truth through my sleepy eyes. No need for the Good Lucks. The damage is done.
{*} Foodie. Arh. If all else fails, I think I want to become a food critic. Hehe. Just take out all the vegetables from my food and I will be glad to tuck in. I realized this while eating at Marche with Hoonie. I tucked into a nice plate of waffles with fresh strawberries, chocolate fudge and mango ice-cream. Yummmy! Expensive though. Tuesday was lovely indeed. And Thursday shall be lovelyer because Ed & I shall march ourselves down to Constant Cravings. And it better be beatifully revamped. And that cute semi-gay guy better be my waiter/cook/cashier. He is lovely. I like people who really love their job. It shows.
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I have learned not to worry about love;
but to honor its coming with all my heart
- Unknown. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:35 PM on
Sunday, April 17, 2005
[*] News. I rarely read newspapers at home. For some reason, I just couldn't be bothered. But today, I just picked it up and started reading the Focus section. The articles were about prostitutes and of course, the patrons. I have no comments about them but I have a lot to say about the "mat motor" (biker guys) who go there. One of them, a 27 year old who is already engaged to be married, sends the waitress home and accepts it when she offers herself to him. When the interviewer asked about how his fiancee would feel, you know what the bastard said? "Haiyah.. I cannot be "tasting" the same thing right.. sometimes I must also "taste" other products." And he laughed. And he had the audacity to say he is handsome. Self-appraisal to the max. Oh my my. Are there actually truly trustworthy men left out there? Emmit.
[*] Cows. Oh and I have found out the rationale for the cows. heh. Advertisement purposes. Now I recall the cow tails on some buses. They are of the same idea as well. Quite lame when I think about it. But oh well.
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"Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes...
just be an illusion." -Javan. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:18 PM on
Saturday, April 16, 2005
[*] Its. I cannot seem to find a better way to describe the first part of my Saturday other than it's full of love. There is nothing better than spending the start of your weekend with your family; laughing and saying the stupidest things. Well, I was awoken by my dad who began a conversation with me on bank investments. I learnt one thing or two that I can actually throw back at those irritants who get paid for cornering people and dispatch lies.
[*] And then. Of course, the day then began to slide into the mashes of cow dung. What with the many complications and the confusion that I keep getting thrown into. I tell you. Fencing is my thing now.
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There is nothing worst you
can do to a friend
than to deny them the truth
- Me. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:45 AM on
Thursday, April 14, 2005
My friend, Rudy, who plays guitar for his band.
I was bored so I ruined his picture.
With his permission.
[*] 6am. Considering that it is legally the very next day, that is today, I think it is safe for me to blog right about now. Okay. I have not slept a wink since... the last time I slept. And I am waiting for at least 6am before I can have a nice sleep. I wonder what time I will wake up at all later on. Killing 3 hours was not too bad. For an hour I played Yahoo! Pool. I watched VCDs for 2 hours and in between the 2 hours, I managed a sauna facial. It is 15 minutes before 6 am and if you are smart enough, yes you are right; I am blogging to pass the next 15 minutes. And to make myself feel even better, Adam Levine is serenading me with Secret.
[*] Ex-. I will be elated if I have anything particular to pick on today, but for now, my mind is giving instructions along the lines of wash your face and go to bed. Except that I am still wondering about those cows. Today will be one of my most boring-est. No obligations. Safe slacking. What more can I ask for, yar? Sleep happy, Anna*.
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"Your voice makes me tremble inside
and your smile is an invitation for
my imagination to go wild" - Fayez Alameddine, MD Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:30 AM on
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
[*] Awe. Something must be really wrong around here. I am up at 9 am, and not sleepy at all. And the first call of the day goes to my dear uncle who wanted to know the nearest MRT station to MCYS. And after that, my hp was completely clean and silent. Ah. One should always wake up to therapeutic sounds of the likes of Seal's Kiss from a Rose, Maroon 5's Secret.. I was about to say Sunday Morning.. lol. Hey, I wonder why Daniel Bedingfield's second album is called 2nd 1st Impression? Is it because he didnt think he had a good first impression? Eheh.
[*] Missing. Hey I am getting this feeling for the second time already. The feeling as though there is something missing in my Life. The first time I felt it was when I was so sleepy and so fatigued but I could not sleep. Like there is supposed to be something by my side but there isn't. And this is the exact same reason why I am up super early. Hrm. Shrugs.
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"The first sigh of love
Is the last breath of wisdom" - Haley. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:53 PM on
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
[*] Cows. Maybe I am backdated or something. But I keep seeing cows everywhere I go. And I am talking about possibly thick cardboard cows of colors such as the pinks, the blues, the yellows, etc. They are like at weird places all over the island! I was in Bus 7 and I saw them on some slopes before HV. And then I saw them at the side of a forest when I was in 156. Someone please tell me what the rationale for them is.
[*] Irritations. I get irritated when I cannot understand. But sometimes understanding hurts. Therefore, I have chosen not to understand. But sometimes the development of certain stories are so to be better understood. Yet they can be illogical. It's to be or not to be, and to understand or not to understand. No wonder they say ignorance is bliss. Because when you choose not to know, you choose not to be hurt. True?
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"The heart wants what it wants....
There's no logic to those things" - Woody Allen Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:13 AM on
Monday, April 11, 2005
[*] Off we go. Can I marry Maroon 5's lead singer? How can anyone sing like that and get away with it? He should be arrested and be sentenced to a lifetime slavery to me. No worries, nothing kinky here. I just want him to sing Secret to me every morning when I wake up and each night before I go to sleep.
[*] Tangled Up. I am slowly turning into a vegetable. Spinach, today. Why not. My back is hurting me so much that I am left immobile on the bed. Ouch ouch. And the old illness seems to be saying hello again. Only I dont think I shall be friendly enough to say "Welcome".
[*] Abandonment. Yesterday was weird. I took an afternoon nap and I woke up, feeling as though someone whispered lullabies into my ears as I slept. I felt peaceful. And then I spaced out. I completely panicked, thinking I had left my pc on for 12 hours. I sat at the PC, typing mumbo jumbos. And then realised it was only an hour after I slept.
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Let me be your satellite
Hand over your world at night Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:38 AM on
Sunday, April 10, 2005
[*] Sunday Morning. Maroon 5's Sunday Morning is such a blast. In no reference to the lyrics, the tune sets the peaceful tone of how a Sunday morning should be. The song should only be played on Sunday mornings man! It was weird listening to Sunday Morning on a Friday night. And I am so addicted to Maroon 5's Secret(s). I played it like 20 times in a row, the same way I abused Lifehouse. You can't blame me. \m/
[*] Myspace. In jubilation! The Arrogants added me to their friend list. Cool indie band. I like them inspite of the horrifying memories attached. *grins* :) Myspace.com.. I discovered it because I wanted to add The Arrogants. And I had to sign up, duh. It worked like Friendster. But I swear this is cooler. I get Tshirt guys and Rock bands adding me as a friend. It is no wonder I left Friendster for abandonment for months. Yes. And that tiny font was on purpose.
[*] Oh. And so I am back again in Blogger. And the layout was chosen because. Come on, I had only that few options in my hands. Anime was definitely out. I need to reflect light. And if I didnt blog for this holiday, I would die. That's putting it mildly. Okay, oh so I am being dramatic.
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When I'm alone, I think of your smile.
It helps me get through the day. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:53 AM on
Sunday, April 03, 2005
All Good Things...
Need to take a BLOODY BREAK! Blogger has done me good service. For a good over a year already, I have been typing my thoughts down. Thoughts that carry me from yesterdays to todays. Thoughts that evolve from bitter dwellings, mushy residences and wells of depression. From moments of very much in love to painful slam dunk da relationship to bouncing again to normalcy to moments of hope and the rollercoaster ride continues to its current state of ambivalent stability. Blogger did good service to many. CNA even had an episode on blogging.. blogging in other words, is like an online diary and one holds the power of choice to showcase that diary or keep it private. For that same good over a year my thoughts have been read by the good few, or the random bloghoppers. But I figured, enough already. I think it is high time I take a bloody holiday manz! Even lovers need time away from each other!~
Need to take a BLOODY BREAK! Blogger has done me good service. For a good over a year already, I have been typing my thoughts down. Thoughts that carry me from yesterdays to todays. Thoughts that evolve from bitter dwellings, mushy residences and wells of depression. From moments of very much in love to painful slam dunk da relationship to bouncing again to normalcy to moments of hope and the rollercoaster ride continues to its current state of ambivalent stability. Blogger did good service to many. CNA even had an episode on blogging.. blogging in other words, is like an online diary and one holds the power of choice to showcase that diary or keep it private. For that same good over a year my thoughts have been read by the good few, or the random bloghoppers. But I figured, enough already. I think it is high time I take a bloody holiday manz! Even lovers need time away from each other!~
:)
I will return after this commercial break!
Hasta La Vista!~
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Love,
Anna D.
Love,Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:39 AM on
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Bummed. All my plans for the day got cancelled all because my cramps got worst in the afternoon. It was so bad that sitting down hurt, lying down led to hunched positions.. dont even talk about walking. I think I already know how it feels like to be a bent 60 year old. In pain. Laughter lost its appeal and people could even hear my misery through the phone. And I wasnt even complaining. It's not that better now, except that I had enough of being propped on the bed like a piece of lifeless prata.
Short-term. I wish for a happier and pain-free Sunday. Oh and not to mention, enough of all these emotional rollercoasters for the day. Mood swings are giving me irritations. I dont get irritated easily. But I think negative things.. and one moment, I am all mushy mushy and suddenly I am just slamming the world. Oh not to mention, I want to do away with this sudden urge to write Malay poems.
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And maybe
When we next meet
One thing I ask of you
Do not try to ask
That feeling
That I have left dead Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:54 PM on
Friday, April 01, 2005
[*] I used to love stars. I used to like the idea that they are just up there, twinkling brightly, shining.. and some say.. stars watch over your loved ones.. grant wishes.. The five-point objects spread all over the universe just give people hope.. That's why you hear lovers saying.. "you are the star of my life".. But after doing the same like these people do.. and the fall of my stars.. slowly I realise.. stars are not beautiful.. In fact, they are round little unwanted planets.. they are the "rubbish" of the sky.. And they dont watch over you.. they are just there.. False hopes.. Initially, I wanted to send you a star that protects you.. but now thinking back.. I am just going to send a prayer above.. that your Life will always be blessed and you will always be in bliss.. and that nobody can steal the smile from your face ever.
[*] And though it seems to be all that I talk about, I am not in love. Maybe it is just that I feel extremely appreciated. That my existence actually meant something to someone who is not even of blood. Even from just a mere buddy. When he thought I was in danger.. he didnt sleep.
:)
Friends forever. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:20 PM on
Too bad. I am just not meant to write about my fishing trip. Maybe Blogger is allergic to fishes. Or me writing about fishing trips because the past two entries I tried typing and publishing it.. they both went missing or just did not appear. It's alright.. it's ok..
Running away. I think I want to run away. I feel so uneasy. It's like.. my buddy and me.. we seem to think of doing the same thing to each other at the same time and usually, I will be a step ahead. And sometimes it's all good. Sometimes.. I think it's a little eerie. Nobody is perfect.. and as much as we share our joys and craziness.. we do argue. But yesterday's incident made me think he's really sweet. He learnt that my resolution for the year is to be happy all year-round. And we were arguing yesterday. I knew he was upset with me.. BUT.. he said that he wants me to keep my resolution.. so dont worry about him. Although I said.. that is stupid because you cannot stop me from feeling guilty or sad whenever I feel them. As he said, "As long as you are happy, I am happy too." Sighs. But lately.. I am seeing things I dont think I should be seeing.. I wonder.. are all these emotions here because I treasure my buddy in a way I should not be? Is there a rule in the book that I missed out? Or is it just PMS?
Just give me some time. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:52 AM on
Blog the Blur. I actually blogged this part about my fishing trip about 7 hours ago... around 3am plus. But Blogger... decided to play the all-famous fools' joke on me. My entry disappeared after I published it. Argh! It's okay.. patience is virtue. *takes deep breath*
Blur fishes. Anyway.. last night, me, hoon, gill and her bf, kiat.. went fishing. It was fun.. because when you put friends together in a serene setting, you get laughter and more laughter.. which included songs we created to lure the fishes. I caught 5 fishes.. the last one being the cutest and prettiest looking one- if one compares it to the series of selar kunings caught, this fish just won the contest la. Gillian caught the most fishes. I saw sotongs.. and the way they swam looked kinda weird.. No direction and all. I was told that the way to catch a sotong is to lure them with green light. These sotongs will be attracted to the light and when they come near, you switch the green light to yellow. It must be a sudden switch. This will freeze the sotongs and then you can use the net to just catch them. No wonder they so blur la. Frozen by a switch of light. The fishes are getting smarter (or am i the dumb one?) because.. my fishing rod was in place.. the bait in place.. but the big schools of fishes just swam through it! Fed up, manz. Towards the end, around 2am, I suddenly became fish feeder. I put in the prawns to feed the fishes. And two fishes were smart to nibble a bit and then swim away. Some got cheated- that's when they get caught. I like the fishing trip. I may not always get a fish. But the experience was refreshing.
Sick. How ironic it is for me to fall sick on this day. I knew something was wrong when I felt a bit more tired than usual, when I got home. The time of the month on this very day. Is this some biological April Fools' Joke too? Bah. Weak, listless, and a constant craving for the bed. Let me satisfy the urge for now.
:/
I wish you'd let me be sad.
You refuse to make me sad.
Just because.. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:38 AM on
There's just you and me
And all the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
There's just you and me
And all the people
And I dont know why
I can't keep my eyes off from you
There's something about you now
That I can't quite figure out
Everything you do is beautiful
Everything you do is right...
:(
I'm sorry. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
