At 10:52 PM on
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
[i want him who wants me]
today was an okay day. morning sucked to the core. the moment i woke up- which was like at 6.30am. fireworks everywhere. disappointment coursing through my veins. anger. the feeling like i want to set everything on fire. day was okay. i never felt like i was in school although technically i was. tsk. i think i should pay more attention. dang. hrmm.. after school was holland village, where i succeeded in having a fight with my friend. [sarcastic here] i was too emotional la i guess. i walked out on my friend. openly. and of course, there was a hugey argument after that. and it was sorta amazing that instead of getting slammed like some 24 year old idiot would.. [sarcastic here again], my friend actually explained to me calmly [though there were peppers of disappointment in the voice] why he was upset.. why he was disappointed that i did not at least return to where he was.. that i did not call.. he waited for me for 30 minutes before going home. i realise i was very stubborn. arh. but i apologised in the end. i was so upset that i actually sat at clarke quay and talked to a cat. *giggles.
tell me that
you love me
.............. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:01 AM on
Monday, June 27, 2005
[my baby shot me down]
it is 5.24AM when i type this. what the heck am i up to? no idea. just that i was awoken by the overly cold temperature in my room and the thoughts in my head. i realise i hate to adore people. because it would mean that there is a soft spot in my heart for them. and when they leave, that is when i crumble and die and live again, donning a smile on a mask of strength. i guess the real fear is being left. by circumstance or by death. i guess this makes up the biggest reason why i resist so strongly against relationships. my friend once told me i am purposely playing hard to get. playing? i don't take these things lightly. hard? yes, it is hard for me to want to try when the later circumstances will suck worst than the beginning. anyone saying that i am being bitter? no, just being factual. live for the moment? applies only to certain situations like living the high life, being out with your friends or time with family. but love love? die hard. and this, only i can accept and understand. and the suckiest suckiest thing about this is that these very words will turn around and bite me. Arh.
[insatiable]
Guess what! On my way out, i met Vernon A! He looks very Vernon as Vernon can get. Lol. His car is damn sleek and cute. I think i was majorly amazed by how clean it looks. Haha. and sunday was chocolates day. Haha. my brother got his pay and he bought me M&Ms! am i that obvious a chocoholic?? LoL. Then later at night when i met my friend, i receive Ferrero Rocher! someone get me van houten chocolates or kinder bueno and it will be complete la.
How long will you be wanting me?
How long will it be before
it is your turn to say goodbye?
......... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:00 PM on
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Look at what Mr Einstein drew for me!! Hee Hee!
[Einstein-ness]
Heehee. Okay. This update is overdue but I was too busy being lazy. Haha. Okay. So I was out with Eddy at Taka.. and apparently Art Friend is now open! Yay! Then Mr Enstein was at the demonstration show.. he was drawing stuff for the people there including children. I was stading there with Ed, trying to take pictures- that are not of his botak head. Haha. And then Mr Einsten asked me what I wanted him to draw. Hee hee. I wanted fish, so he draw fishes under the sea for me!! So sweeet right! Then he wanted me to color.. but some ******* kids snatched the paper right from me!!! ARGHHHH!!!! Still I colored a rainbow fish. He said its nice. Yay! And I got an autograph! Weee!!
[Disguistingness]
I saw something horrifying today! Haha. Okay.. As I was walking at Scotts Road there.. there was this guy who passed by me.. he was wearing low hipster jeans.. and it is loose apparently. Ehehm. Then he wanted to wipe his nose.. he lifted his shirt! *gasp* the horror was not just that! So he lifted his shirt and revealed....... [apart from a flat tummy]... his loose jeans showed the bulu-bulu (hair) of his ****!!! ARGHHHH!!!! *faints*
......................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:47 AM on
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
[A lot like.. us]
Yay yay! I caught the sneak preview of A Lot Like Love with Eddy! Yippee doo dahh! Yippee yay!! *blows kisses. Haha. As I had thought.. predictable plot. Cliched ending. But still, lovable. I guess it is because sometimes, these kind of shows stir up certain sort of underlying desires in us mere mortals. For instance, it seemed sweet when Fate keeps bringing and separating and reuniting (and it goes on) two people over 7 years in varying circumstances. But hey.. it is lighthearted. And it is romantic- touching too, when someone put their ego aside to admit that they love someone. *winks. I like A Lot Like Love. War of the Worlds -seem- interesting.. but.. heehee.. somehow, Fantastic Four is luring me like a child to candy.
[candy]
And Eddy bought a new wallet at Espirit at like 50% off the full price. From 70 bucks to 35 bucks! With the help of the Espirit card from this super sweet lady. And she was like.. so casual about it.. when she heard that Ed did not have an Esprit card, she asked, "Do you want to use mine?" Whoa. So sweeeet right. Alas, there are some nice people left in this world. And I am damn hungry. Tsk.
What did you do?
...... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:16 PM on
Sunday, June 19, 2005
I hate feeling like this. I hate this feeling. It was this feeling that once brought me down to my knees. It was this feeling that had once destroyed me. It was this feeling that had lifted me so high up and then I was left to fall through the harsh winds all the way down. I hate this feeling. This is the feeling of weakness. Being weakened. I am strong. I am strong. I am strong. And maybe I shall only take memories away with me. But I am being weakened. I hate it. I hate this feeling. I shall fight. Even though memories urge me towards sweet surrender. I will fight. I will fight. I will fight. I will not be broken again. I will fight. And that.. is that. But when I recall.. arhhh.. I guess this is what you call what goes around comes around.
Here I go
Screaming my lungs out
And trying
to get to you..
.............. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:20 PM on
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Not too good a day today. I was harassed by three drunk b_ng_as.. who were lepaking near my house area. And apparently, one of them thought I was trying to pick a fight with him, so he chased me. And he threw something at my feet, making me trip and fall- now my left foot is bruised. tsk. And when I reached home, there was a slight trouble as well. So I kept my little adventure quiet- except to my friend who happened to call me then. And guess what.. I dont know if he is being such a darling or what.. or just.. I dont know.. *shrugs.. the guy was on his way for a night of clubbing with his friends.. but guess where they head to when he heard my story- came over and.... *censored*. tsk.
I feel so guilty.. like I interrupted his night of fun.. sighs.. But it's also too much of him right? He even brought his friends down to settle this. Wahliew~ Sighs. Now I am exhausted. Night everyone. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:58 PM on
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Time check: 9.59pm. And I am beyond exhausted. Fatigued, even. And hungry. Yet, all I want to do is sleep. Just sleep my night and all my disappointments and near-breakdowns away. And I hate that Capital radio channel. It irritates me- nah, don't ask me why. Oh and on Perfect 10 just now, I heard the review for Batman Begins. Apparently this make of the comic series really is power. It was given a rating of 4 out of 5- compared to Mr & Mrs Smith's 3 out of 5 bites. So how now, brown cow? Tsk. Decisions, decisions!
Guess who's back? Missus. Someone please pass me a big bottle of heart-saving pills. And some concoction for that extra boost of patience. Please. I may pass out by tomorrow evening. Okay, I don't want to blog anymore. I am so tired that I bet I will start snoring or something the moment my head hits the pillow. And why is everyone going to that musical anyway? Am I excluded from the propaganda? Why are people getting free tix? That horrible isit. Tsk. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:25 PM on
Monday, June 13, 2005
I think I'm drowning, asphyxiated. I want to break the spell that you've created. You will be the death of me. I wanted freedom, bound and restricted. I tried to give you up, but I'm addicted. Now that you know I'm trapped, sense of elation. 46 more days. And I have no idea what will happen after that. Will we still be trapped in this game we created? Will we die? Will we break free? Will the game be over? I don't know. I can't wait to find out. I feel like I am using my last lifeline against my will in this. I refused to be a player. I refused. I was adamant. I was stubborn- well, since when I am not? You were the enemy although I treated you like a friend. I told you to quit. I told you to leave me alone. Both our persistence were at loggerheads. I was going to hate you. I almost hated you- why couldn't you leave me alone? I am happy left alone. Because I know that although I rule now.. in the end, I will lose. And you will be like the rest of them all. Fuckers.
No Mr & Mrs Smith.
No shopping.
ARGH. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:27 PM on
Friday, June 10, 2005
[not for exhibition]
today, after my infamous one-hour class and a few more hours of project meetings, with me whining and whining- eheh, [okay okay, anna is not behaving like the good girl.] i headed for harbour front mall to have lunch with my mother. haha. i even did not eat lunch with the girls so i can eat with my mommy okay~. (: there, i saw many many girls- really, there were hardly any boys- lining up for the autograph session of Energy. They were already there at like 2 plus? And the Energy boys will only be there at about 7pm. Such fans~. After lunch.. we walked around.. and i saw this dwarf-like girl at the electronics store. she is only as tall as just above my knee area? the size of a 4 year old. She has small breasts, dyed hair. She had on a really nice green tank top. Seeing her made me realize how much these people need true friendships and NOT STUPIDLY INSENSITIVE SINGAPOREANS STARING AT HER LIKE SHE IS AN EXHIBITION. I mean, if there is nothing you can do to make her life a better one, then STOP staring at her as though her being created that way is for stage-show. no wonder it has been said that singaporeans are good audience. i so agree.
weekend is here! i especially love saturday! especially saturday nights! yipee!
.......................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:50 PM on
Thursday, June 09, 2005
[sock it]
i think i want to be in the amoeba club for a long long time. yeah, at times, i do crave for love and attention- wait, even that is really rare. for some reason, i feel like it is all pointless. i have seen hardcore, real love - and this is rare. and i see the so-called love that is around us these days. girls with the right hair, the right clothes, the right face and the guys who want these things. the walking around town looking like the couple of the moment.. and when all these show and tell sessions are over, what happens to these couples? having stupid quarrels that curb each other's independence. and then having kiss and makeup sessions. a vicious cycle. happy-sad-fight-happy-sad-fight. over and over. girls making use of the guys- for money, etc. guys making use of girls for lust, trophies, etc. i want the simplest and the most innocent of love that encourages the zest for living Life to the fullest and beats the pressures of worldly materials possessions. will that ever be possible? *shrugs.
let my body
bear the game
of your fingers
............... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:13 PM on
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
I know I don't know you
But I want you
so bad...
[the wind blows..]
today's class was a bit heavy- and confusing towards the end. the lecturer's voice just became some muffled sounds to my ears. i had to put two and two together to sorta guess what she was getting at. and i kept mistaking the bangle on my left wrist as my adidas watch- i kept wanting to check the time there. so funny how i turned from a person who can live without a watch to someone who has learnt to depend on one. i guess this is an example of how possible changes can occur in people.
[you've got a way with me..]
my buddy is very.... (lost for words). haha. but can be adorable at times. he sent me an mms of a toy monkey and asked me how come it looks like me. argh! i feel super guilty towards him though. i was supposed to treat him to dinner.. but i cannot seem to find the perfect time. i know he was upset- but as usual he is being patient about it. my buddy is special.. so cannot just anyhow treat him right.. he spent 20 dollars on desserts on me before. sweet huh? i wish him all the happiness he can ever get. although he will never read this blog, i just want to say, i miss ya buddy. (: Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:50 PM on
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
[handle your.]
*sobs. today i almost wished i were a boy. it would be so much easier. for instance, if i were to decide to stay single forever, people wont worry so much about me- like if i were to stray to some dark path, lead a life of uncertainty- almost as if a woman cannot survive without a man. i think it is more like anyone cannot live without some sort of love and affection. but i am a girl! and i am not prepared for some sorta sexual transformation. hrm. i think i shall join the amoeba-club.It lies in the environment- affects you whether you like it or not. for instance, a messy room will always give you a sense of muddled-upness. i love tuesday afternoon lectures- it is like a free 3-hr session to catch up with your friends, with a room cleared out specially for you. maybe now you can tell my room is sorta messy because my blog update is- if you havent already noticed, that is. anyway, ed has THAT! tsk.
oh, and if i watch Mr & Mrs Smith, it would be for Angelina Jolie- not Brad Pitt, thank you. Darn that girl is a doll. did i just say i am joining the amoeba club? bah. and June is the KETUK month. I think they should alternate good and bad movies- at least.. spare me the dilemma! Coz if I were to catch movies every week, my wallet will bleed. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:14 PM on
Monday, June 06, 2005
I like her voice.
And I like the guy at the back.
Such cute glasses. Haha.
[My fault?]
I was so mad at my friend. Remember the one who called me at wee hours of the morning? Yeah. He is pissing me off big time. Firstly, hasn't he heard of R & R, privacy? Even the noisiest of people needs some peace and quiet. Tsk. But nooooo~ my day is his day and my night is his day too. He can call me up to over 10 times in a day.I don't know what his problem is. And today he told me he got me something for my birthday. =_=" I don't know what to say. And later later he told me he is in love with me. Whoa mama! What the?! It is amazing how he can tell me that and then stress me out big time simultaneously. I am trying to be nice and tell him to chill out. But the more I tell him to chill out, the more he stresses me out. How?? tsk.
Anyway Ed, Mr & Mrs Smith this Monday the 13th! After twweet... *giggles. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:33 PM on
Sunday, June 05, 2005
My favourite modern cartoon! Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
[I aint no..]
Wahhhhhh.. I thought there was some bike race or something in my house area just now. On the way to the nearest supermarket to do some grocery shopping, there was this whole load of like 30 over bikes on the road? Whoa. It was sorta scary. Then my mother explained that they were heading to this guy's wedding ceremony. Wah. He sure got a lot of members. Fuh~ Anyway, my mother was talking about Love to me. eheh. She told me to get a boyfriend. Someone who will take care of me, and be there for me, for me, knows how to support me even in the worst of times. And many many others la. Wahliew~ *sweats.
[Didi dadi dum]
Whoa. I had very badly disrupted sleep last night. My guy- friend kept calling me and apologizing, and crying. Wahliew. It was scary. But I was irritated. How to forgive someone when your sleep was disrupted so rudely like that. Tsk. Anyway, after watching tons of video clips, i realised that the female singers have their own set of dancers. But of all, I like Gwen Stefani's dancers- they are Asians! Okay, so maybe they only have Asian blood. Eheh. But I like!
.............. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:02 PM on
Saturday, June 04, 2005
[insert ninja kick here]
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles! Haiyakkkkk!!
[Pizza pizza yum yum]
I love the old cartoons. Very the classic. Very the real funny, and not real lame thus leads to being funny. Funny funny is still best. These ninja boys are so cute. I love their names- especially Michaelangelo. So intriguing. Imagine if you have a boyfriend (of course not a turtle la), and you introduce him to your friends saying, "Girls, I am attached to this cutie. His name is Michaelangelo." Wah, so cheem. Eheh. (: Which leads to.. I love Pink Panther. (Ah the cartoon jingle plays in my head!) I used to have the tapes- well, it was that long ago. I miss it! And the classic Looney Tunes. I think all these are way better than the cartoon nowadays, well, except maybe for Spongebob Squarepants. Eheh. (:
Pizza reminds me of..
....................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:17 PM on
Friday, June 03, 2005
..::-_Bagging it_-::..
Aha. On the way to the Devil's house, I went to collect my bag. Eheh. Thanks, Ed. I figured that the bugger could wait a bit longer. My bag is more important. At least it does not irritate the shit out of me. (: I wanted to buy my beads but ah well, they were not meant to be mine today because the still-beautifully-arranged shop is closed. Maybe the owner went for High Tea. Lol. I was still staring through the clear glass though for a good 5 minutes. Tsk. So nicely hung. TsKkK.Anyway the bugger asked me what I wanted for my birthday. =_="
..::-_Infusions_-::..
Here I am sipping on my nice herbal tea.. reading my tags. Eheh. I think it isn't Spiderman. Why would SPIDERman be bitten by BATS? He should be bitten by spiders, no? Oh yes, I just remembered. He was bitten by this mighty spider at some science lab. Tsk. Catwoman was bitten by cats. So BATman should be bitten by BATS. And yeah, travelling to JB on my own was freaky. Not going to happen again. Hey, this herbal stuff is pretty good. I feel more energised now. (:
....................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:03 PM on
Thursday, June 02, 2005
[click, click, click]
Guess what. Oh wait. Greeetings... hello!~ Guess what. I went to JB alone, and it was a freaky experience. I felt like I was a bug on exhibition. People just stared at me. Every step I take, their eyes follow. =_=" I was supposed to go town, and then I decided against it, wanted to go get some stuffs in JB. Asked my brother along.. BUT then he was halted at the checkpoint. They won't let him through. TSK. So, I ended up going alone. I felt so weird. I don't want to ever go alone again though. *shudders*
[as I was]
On the way for breakfast this morning, I saw the television crew in the middle of my estate. I was sorta surprised and amused by their presence actually. Coz, firstly, only someone who knows about my estate will come here. It's kinda isolated-private in the sense. But it sure is a good spot to do their filming ah. Hey, the Batman Begins movie.. is about how batman come to existence right? But don't we all know he was bitten by bats or something and his parents were killed in front of him? Hrm.
............................ Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:36 PM on
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
[Buididipi!]
Hee Hee. I was on the way to the kitchen and I saw this video playing on my brother's pc- The Ketchup Song by Las Ketchup. Hee Hee. A one hit wonder? Maybe the tomato sauce companies refuse to sponsor them. But that song was cute. Like Macarena. Hee hee. Speaking of which.. I love Hollaback Girl. Hee Hee. It is at the top of my playlist. B-a-n-a-n-a-s! I was reading this makeup website that gives tips on how to pull off that Gwen Stefani-red lipstick look. It's keeping the rest of your makeup minimal, and then wearing the lipstick with confidence. But heck, I think only Gwen does it best. The rest of us.. let's stick to the nude, yeah?
[Bodyrockers]
Ahh. My weekend-day in the middle of a week. I must enjoy my Thursdays very very much. No school! Yippee!! I was supposed to go out but a lot of changes have been made here and there. Anyway, free weekday does not come cheap, so I might as well live it up ar. My two FOX shirts got stolen! This is the BLEAH part of living on the first floor. Oh and I heard that War of the Worlds- Not too sure of the title la.. is a collaboration of TOM CRUISE and the Lucas guy. TOM CRUISE. Long-time favourite!! Now, I am going to go bankrupt watching movies.
............... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
