At 8:02 PM on
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
[Issue 1] Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers in the Universe. Emmit. A teacher's work is never easy. Never. Never easy. So if you think your teacher is a yaddda yaddda blah blah... slap yourself and think twice.. try doing what she is doing and I bet you cannot tahan even 1/6 of the shit she has to go through. So, let's not take our lecturers for granted. *winks. I love y'all! MUuuUaCKkKzZz!!
[Issue 2] Cruising! Next week, darling mother wants me to so-called "relax" so I am going to be out of the country for a while, having a complete nobodybothersmeasireallyrotinthebathtubfullofscents. In short, my dream of having a leisurely day in a bathtub might just come true.
[Issue 3] I am so out of here. I need to shower. LOL. Again, Happy Teachers' Day! Maybe I shall add post-notes after this or something. Or something. Wakaka.
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And you said? Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:57 PM on
Sunday, August 28, 2005
In response to yesterday's traumatic crap, one of my friends persistently smsed me to share my crap. I was sleeping, and was still sleeping throughout the smses. But well, my friend did not give up on me. At night, my friend came down to talk to me.. just put some motivation, encouragement and wise words into my head. Never mind the fact that it was getting late. The talk was good. I went home feeling a bit better than the day before. Never mind the fact my numbness is very much stil as cold as ice. But thanks anyway, for coming down. =)
What I want to get soon:
1) DMs!!!
2) Black hoods!!!
3) Bags from err... u know lar eh, Eddy. hehe*.
............... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:36 PM on
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Around 2pm today, a call came in for me, and it was short yet long enough to make me the saddest, most broken girl of the moment. And no, I am not exaggerating. After so long of promising to be true to myself, even that had to be compromised. I felt so low so used so silly and so dumb, but so hopeful. It was a very bad concoction of all sorts of feelings. I was out then and within 2 hours, I was home. Because I was internally shaken. I locked the room and I was crying. Then I decided to change and leave the house for town, yet again. But this time, I went.. completely ????. I thickened my eyeliners by ten-fold. No blusher. Plain foundation. Clear lipgloss, my bangs were down. Black leather bangle. Complete black outfit with black shoes. My brother thought I was out to kill someone. Lol. Well, out in town, I had several reactions. While some seemed to be intrigued by the outfit, I think I scared some children and there were some girls who purposely moved seats away from me in the train. But I didnt give a shit. And my dad said I looked really freaky when he got home. Yeah, okay. Blah. Maybe I shall adopt this image for a long time. It is really good when nobody pays no interest to you.
......................................... Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:39 AM on
Honestly, for the past 2 months I have only been like working on autopilot mode. Other than that one vault within me that is aching and dying and whatever away, everything else about me moves on its own, with random instructions from the brain. Lol. Seriously, I am going out of my mind. I am in this really tough situation that can beat any other easily. In fact, it was also constant battle within me and my ego and pride. Part of me just wants to let go because I am like.. what the heck.. I have my pride.. and yet the wisened part of me tells me that half of the battles in this world are viciously bloody because of ego. It would be easy to just give in to my stubbornness and ignore the situation and save me loads of trouble.
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Right here
right here
right here.. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:59 PM on
Friday, August 26, 2005
i have never ached this much before
til i met you
i have never craved this much before
til i met you
i have never desired this deeply before
til i met you
i have never wished this hard before
til i met you
i tried so hard to find a single memory to hate you
but i found every reason to love you
who are you
and why are you doing this to me
O cruel one?
Fatigue. Tired. Drained. Exhausted. Whatever synonyms that you can find for this terrible state of being, yeah I am it. I want so much to just lose myself in a bath tub full of roses and scented water. I wish to just lie in there, and read Harry Potter.. or some romance novels. The candles will be lit and soft soothing music or probably Lush will be playing in the background. My hair will be tied up high in a messy bun. A nice cup of coffee will be within reach. Argh... dreams dreams dreams..
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Even when I dream of you
the sweetest dreams
will never do
Coz I still miss you Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:40 AM on
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
& Chocolate Warehouses
{*} That golden ticket. Hey, don't get me wrong. I love Willy Wonka. And I have always loved Roald Dahl's work. But I love the Tshirt more. I saw the Tshirts. They were like just how I imagined it to be. Designs, I mean. But for a hardtocomeby and howoftenwilliwearitinaweek shirt, is 50 bucks worth it? Ack. And seriously, sometimes I think I am just not meant to wear pants.
{*} Blogging madness. Now that part of the confusion is over, I should be getting back to a bit of sleep. After all, why the heck am I up at this uncool hour? (Oh and yes, eddy, I still want that black hoody for my spying days) (:
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You who made
me humble when
i wouldnt bow
should i hate you
or thank you for making
me wake up Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 11:20 PM on
Monday, August 22, 2005
Shined so bright
{*} Mental debate. Today I had a debate with myself. The argument had lines that sounded like.. anna please stop.. anna don't.. anna shut off.. anna.. stop.. anna.. don't even think about it... but there were also the lines that went but i want.. so much.. please.. let me... just another one.. don't let me stop... please... okay.. so so much.. i need.. And the conclusion to that is... ar well, I have not yet come to a conclusion. I was like a towel wringed completely dry. And no, I am not talking about shopping. (Oh yes, Eddy, I want that black hoodie for my spying days.)
{*} Double Indexes and BloodyProjects. So what are all these voices going on inside my head? Arh. 2 more weeks to the End of the Semester. 2 more weeks to the 2 months of complete liberation, where the cycle of thereisnothingtodoandiamsoboredletusdosomething stage. I want to go on a blardy holiday. But for some odd reason, I feel uninspired to do so as well. Maybe I am not at the stage of getmeoutofhereiambored phase. Yet.
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But I conclude..
i want you. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:06 AM on
Sunday, August 21, 2005
{*} My new friend. Arh, at this point I wish to pour out my confessions of how much I.. miss my dear old N7260. I can really just dedicated an entire poem to that cute little white&red darling. Because, putting aside all the features such as camera, the alarm clock is of utmost importance. But guess what! This new phone of mine.. cannot wake me up as successfully as N7260 and thus.. I miss a few appointments here and there. I hate missing appointments, especially those I consider important. Bah!
{*} Dreary Sunday. I think it rained just now. It is so comfortable and so cosy I do not feel like doing anything except just lie flat on my bed and watch the world go by. School begins again tomorrow and some serious tension-inducing stuffs had been discussed on Friday night and honestly, I am rather appalled at the flow of confessions that came out.. and some of my own opinions stood against these. Dilemma. But it seems the rest have made up their minds. It is not like I side anyone. I am on the fence- which makes sense here, right.. because I do not wish to see relationships turn sour as far as I can help it.
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Out of my mind
nothing makes sense anymore Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:38 PM on
Saturday, August 20, 2005
{*} Paragraphing. And so, here I am, once again, in the mood to blog. I realise that Life.. wait.. Life has become very hectic and a tad messy for me to even be in the mood to ramble on to a non-responsive page. But alas, who cares. For I need a Pensieve (Harry Potter fans can relate) to siphon all my thoughts in. For without this blog, my brains would have burst from overloads of thoughts. I think too much, but luckily my thoughts don't control my actions much. Anyway, I have reserved the Half Blood Prince in the library.. and I am number 717 on the waiting list. Wasnt the book on sale or something.. so why are these 716 people not buying it? Tsk. Ok, I contradict myself.
{*} The Dreads. Supervision came and go. That was one of the most infuriating days I ever seen to date. I nearly became a murderer, by choice. And I swear I was instigated. Argh. But it's all good. I had reassurances. And I had that *@#!@#!@# apologised to me personally for spoiling my morning. Arh, avengences.
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The best times of my Life
are when we are together Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 4:10 PM on
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
there is something that i am going to try to do, for the first time in my Life.
wish me luck, my dear friends.
i have never done this before.
and i have no idea if it will work.
but i will place all my hopes, efforts and energy in this.
wish me luck. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:17 AM on
Friday, August 12, 2005
My phone is stolen.
Sad sad news. Someone got into my house, and amongst the things the bugger had to take away.. it is the.. phone that was kinda expensive to get back then.. and i begged, stoled, borrowed to be able to buy it. My phone was stolen! S T O L E N. When I knew that, I just started crying and crying. Yeah, I can make a career out of that these days. Just cry. I was like.. so many things inside.. so much memories inside.. my hp is like my friend.. i keep all my appointments inside.. meeting times and places.. it wakes me up faithfully every morning.. or when i take a nap.. i miss its little beep and the vibrating sensation that can wake me up from my deathly sleep. Now I wonder how I am going to wake up later for my practicum.. I guess this means.. I need not sleep.. because I have no alarm clock and I might just be late. And best part.. I went to the station to make a report.. and I felt that I had just reported to a bunch of mats at a kopitiam. Compared to my experience in Tanglin.. this was way below standard. Sorry, but its true. It was way unethical of their behavior.
So yeah.. you cant call me for the moment til I get some phone and a sim card. And thats going to suck big time. The guy who took it deserves a pile of shit on his face. argh. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:10 PM on
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Here I am, back from a session of practicum. Guess what I had just now? Rice, fried vege and sweet&sour chicken! Yumz.. I remember yesterday.. I was so exhausted that when I stepped out of the centre, I broke down and cry. And the first person I thought of at that time was.. surprise surprise.. my mother. I wanted to just run home and bury my face in her laps and told her how freakingly tired and upset I am. All the pain that is buried in my heart.. I just want to tell her.. and tell her how much I want her advice.. her support.. her blessings. But when I got home, I slept. Yeah, I know. Damn. So emotional. I crave for Maxbrenner's waffles. So thick and so rich. Arh. Okay, so now you know I am depressed.
And also because. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:14 AM on
Friday, August 05, 2005
Hello wello bello dello wateverllo! It is about errr... 6 something am and i don't feel like continuing my sleep. I had a rather fine day yesterday. Another pig-out session yet again yesterday. i think i don't want to eat for the next one month! Really. I feel like I am completely pouring toxic into my body! Okay, enough whining. Anyway, yesterday, after hurray2 fp, i went to Swensens with my best friends to celebrate lin's birthday! in advance lar. it was a nice meal. *yipee! and lin said i look like an overly done japanese doll. =_= anyway i liked the shoes i wore yesterday BUT hip hip hurray.. say hello b-l-i-s-t-e-r-s! my ankles can be such bitches you know. argh. anyway, there is that meeting today. hope it will be productive. so many other things to do and my supervisor called my mentor to tell me to send her soft copy of my lesson plan. well, its 2 weeks early! but don't know lar. maybe she will be busy next week or something. arhhhh!!!! fffuuu***kkkk practicum! hehe. okay, this entry sounds a bit bimbotically vulgar.
*rolls eyes. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:12 PM on
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Last post was on 29th of July! Ewww! So overdue la! Okay, here is some updates. is? are*. Okay, fact number one: i am stressed. and i am getting migraines 3 times a week. *insert throwing confetti here. This sucks because- come on, do i have to say why? hehe. fact number two: i am tired. i live my day to work my night through morning. cycle is vicious. and i feel viciously overused by myself and the demands of hurray2 practicum. *inserts rolling eyes here. fact number 3: i always spout nonsense when i am tired. haha. like i would sms some weird stuff to people and then fall asleep, and wake up to remember and think why the heck did i write that? fact four: momo sucked til i left - argh! fact 5: i need to gather some happy, if not happyer times. birthday meetup for one of the girls who disappeared into the so-called flurry and blurry of Life, soon. and I have had no time to read. and that makes me so sad, i might tear my hair out. Like Undomesticated Goddess? I have seen 3 people read it! I am envious! and Harry Potter. My brother is reading it soon. I am going to be envious soo. Haha. And I hate dinners. And KFC at Rivervale Plaza. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
