At 11:14 PM on
Friday, September 29, 2006
My IT is here. It's beautiful but still nude- bag alert! It's making me nervous actually. Like as if I have been given this huge porcelain glass vase which had once been broken and plastered together- and now it's my responsibility to take care to not break it- it makes me feel like it's permanently teetering on a thin silver wire- and i am below it, waiting with a big cast net. *nervous*
On another note, recall that I totally blew this guy off when he tried talking to me. Well, to make amends for my rather weird behavior then, I took the initiative to talk to him today. And I guess at first he felt awkward. But I started commending his work and he started to relax- and asked me, "You smell really sweet today. What perfume are you wearing?" And then.. "Hey what happened to your finger?" Okay so is cool and I think I'm forgiven. *yay*
In total so far, I have read three gay books. And it is pretty interesting- their Love lives are similar to heterosexuals- but with that stroke of intensity. Scandals and the relationship wrecker stories also take place in gay relationships. But when they are in love, dude, the passion would melt even the Romeo and Juliet statues.
Oh, the NLB has given me a reply to my persistent request for The End to be on the shelves;
"Dear Miss Anna, The book that you requested will be on the shelves in 4 to 6 weeks time."
I checked the catalogue for months and it's only available in that amount of time! Dude! You gotta be kidding me! How difficult is it to place a book on a shelf?!
Okay. Bag-hunting commencing.. now! Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 12:03 AM on
Don't mind me, but I have a very strong urge to book a flight straight to
Osaka, Japan. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:33 PM on
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Emerald green light radiates
the peek of shimmer of
what had once been
Awaiting the grand thawing
of what had once been
It took just one snort
a cruel bout of laughter
And the ripple effect
Shifted its porcelain balance
Pray, let only the curtains of Time unveil.
but the memory of that will remain. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:50 AM on
Monday, September 25, 2006
Of late, there have been a few pressing questions that have been pressing onto my head. These questions are none other than the general:
- What the heck am I doing?
- Why am I doing what I am doing?
- What will happen to me later if I keep doing this?
- Why am I even thinking about all this?
- Will I ever be normal?
Other than that, I feel like re-reading my The Curious Incident of the Dog at Midnight (I think the title goes something like that). It's about this autistic child. I guess even the title makes sense. It is only he who is fixated upon finding out about this dog. But he is brilliant, nevertheless. Makes me sad each time I read this book, but it really is a good read.
I am done with Running with Scissors. It is a really intriguing memoir, I must admit, despite its very explicit details about issues. It compels you to think the advantages of being given the option to create your own Life your way and having no options all. A beautiful quote I have taken from the book;
The problem with having nobody to tell you what to do is, having nobody to tell you what not to do.
My Polish mate told me that there is a part two to this memoir. And I am not sure if I can get it in Singapore, because the book she read was translated directly from Polish. And really, that Freakonomics book is worldwide hit- even people in Poland (which I am not even sure where that is) are aware of it. :]
Time to hit the sack.
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:45 AM on
Sunday, September 24, 2006
I would like front row seats please.
okay, that's all.
bye. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 5:37 AM on
Saturday, September 23, 2006
hello my world.
hello to A New World. :]
today was a strange strange day with Dan. too strange to be any stranger, in fact. but nevertheless, i find the entire time adorable as it had always been. :]
i bought my first grey shirt! and practically spent the entire day chilling, eating and Scrabbling- it's not chess, uncle.
i have been cutting a certain part of my life away for the past weeks- noticeably or not. but it had been a case of i saw and it supported my bad impression of the entire matter. and perhaps i have become less of a friend because of everything that has taken place. oh well.
there i go, talking in circles again.
i am looking forward to November.
and i am out of my wits looking forward to December! :]
i am thinking of buying the room spray from Ben and Jerry- it smells of cookies. but the catch is.. will my room attract ants then? hrm.
i am currently reading this memoir called Running with Scissors. it is pretty cool so far- a boy who loves dressing up, doctors and pretends the trees are cameras, capturing him. his parens, sadly, are psychotic. i finished the psych/econs book yesterday night. yeah i took a longer time to read this one, because it involved statistics and data readings as well. but it truly is an eye opener and a beautiful insight into worldly issues such as mafias, abortion, etc.
i hope that Maksim visits Asia again on his world tour. i don't mind travelling to KL if he is there- and not visiting Singapore for some reason. :] Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 8:11 AM on
Thursday, September 21, 2006
not the end of this blog of course
I was becoming increasingly irritated, viewing the library catalogue time and again, knowing that the book is somehow somewhere in the dusty corners of shelves in Singapore but it is not ready for loan yet. So, I sent a note to the library services department. And then I saw a reply in my email! I thought it was a reply. But guess what it said? Dear Ms Anna, Thank you for your email. We have forwarded your enquiry to the acquisitions department blah blah~~ Like, right, how efficient.
and you know what. the boss just gave me another documentation report to do up. but i am given my own sweet time to finish it. i think. *haha?* but i am trying to finish it all up by tonight. and you know what? i doubt it's possible. my brain is shutting down any moment now.
3...
2..
1. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:20 PM on
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
have you ever been in a like-situation where supposing.. you love this boy and you are with this boy and you are happy and then.. comes along the one you have always had a crush on.. and the more random moments you spend with The Crush, the more you want to be with him and the more you realise where your heart actually is? And then.. comes The Offer.. and you just know you will be so happy- so much happier, in fact- if you take it up.. but then you can't- you just cant?
yeah. i am in that situation now. oh, how it burns me up each time i think of this and that.
argh.
in any case, i read about this pretty cool issue about the reverse effects between crime and abortion. surely, pro-Life believers are against abortion, so as people who are Pro-Choice who feel that abortion should be legalized. statistics have shown that the legalization of abortion is linked to the drop in crime rates. just imagine. mothers who want abortion, are mostly unwed mothers who just do not want the complications, and in most cases, they do NOT want the child. with that reluctance, the child will be brought up in the most undesirable manner- which may lead to the child to having a higher chance of becoming a criminal in the long run. but with legalized abortion, this likelihood is obliterated. i guess .. every single step we take in this world will always have its good and bad.
*sigh. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:18 AM on
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
tee hee hee hee hee hee hee. okay okay i am *mean*. the workshop today ended one and half hours earlier than intended. it is not exactly a workshop i wish to return to again- the trainer is a nice lady but!!!!!!! unlike the trainer on Monday, she commands attention so much so i don't even dare to visit the toilet. *haha?*
the other day, while i was in the library, searching for cute books- haha- i came across interesting autobiographies- that of kylie, robbie williams.. but the books were so thick i might as well be borrowing a historical archive of the french civilization. unless of course the biography is of Maksim Mrvica. i wonder if he is ever coming down to Singapore for a concert. or has he already?! sigh~~~~
i want to read this book- The End by Lemony Snickett- Book the 13th. It's not available in Singapore as yet, I suppose. It is already in the market, but darling NLB is talking its own sweeeet time to stock it here. this book is sad- all 13 installments are- but i love the guy's pessisimistic way of writing. beautifully tragic? yeah.
Love,Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:01 AM on
Monday, September 18, 2006
i suppose today is a c-okay day. i took a nap at work. it was raining and i couldn't help it. i hid and slept. haha. and then imagine, 20 minutes after i woke up, making coffee no less, this talk about the choreography came up. and the whole idea was? they need a lead. they need a lead. okay. okay, they need a lead. savvy?
and then i headed for my workshop in the evening- loved every bit of it. the trainer knows her stuff and that always is good. which reminds me- another workshop tomorrow. hurrah. which means i get to take a retreat from work for a day. =D don't get me wrong. of course i love my job. but even lovers need a holiday.. far away from each otherrrr~~ *haha*
anyway, i just loaned this book Freakonomics- The Hidden Side of Everything. now this is cool. thinker meets thinker and thinker reads a partnership of thinkers writing down- what i would consider the process of their thoughts. now that's an entire deal of thinking required. actually this book is a marriage of economics and pyschology slash philosophy. so it's cool. if the whole vibe is economics- sayonara book~. i'm still reading it though. i think i should upgrade my membership to that of premium.
okay. time to hit the sack. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:43 AM on
Sunday, September 17, 2006
ahah^. thewholeemotifiedprocess of yesternight is totally behind me, as soon as i woke up in the morning. i had made my decision. i had certified my choice. and i am not going to turn my back on it. yeay! :D
i still somehow cannot find Madonna's books- have they been annihilated for being disguisting horrid or what? libraries don't carry it.... do they? i really like Dr Seuss' works. evergreen- even an overaged person like me can still enjoy it.
the weekend came too fast, and went too fast! tsk. the library is one of the best refuges i have ever had- since i was a young tod. i came across two cool books-- one is Wake Up, Sleeping Beauty! a story of how two princes tried their darn best to wake up the sleepyhead, utilizing drills and cymbals and such.. and The True Story of The Three Little Pigs, a story with the narrator being the wolf himself who claims he had been framed. ahah.
workshop on tuesday! hurrah! being away from work once in a while can be really cool. hehehe. except i hate being in the business district in the mornings OR the afternoons.
An eye-smile is always better and sincere than a mouth-smile. For one, you can never lie about that twinkle in the eye. You may be mouth-smiling but your eyes are dead-panned. Now, that is a bogus smile. -Roald Dahl. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:32 PM on
Friday, September 15, 2006
waddup.
blame it on my numbish mood or stint of alienationism or whatever not, but i have just blown off this friendly guy who was trying to talk to me this morning. sigh. for the rarest time, i honestly went "errR.." while he went ".. urm, its okay, i understand.." and he looked embarassed before continuing.. "i see you on saturdays right? so i see you next week aite :)" sigh. guilty as charged.
********
so i was in school. and i was in the resource room. and i was spending sometime, selecting resources (obviously) when i came across what seems like the entire collection of Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events. [oh by the way, the movie version only covers book the first to book the third] BUT.. book the thirteenth [THE END] was not there! so i asked the guy who mans this room.he checked. really checked. and then.. *buzzer* no book the 13th.
shucks.
okay i'm going to plunge my face onto my pillow. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:59 AM on
Thursday, September 14, 2006
hey y'all.
i was walking home from work earlier, and observing the environment around me. for a long time i have really admired the people living in my area. how different groups line up waiting to use the basketball court. how some set up their laptops in the garden area and did their work. an uncle who plays the keyboard for like, 5 years now. group of elders who practised their wushu and another group of enthusiasts doing line dancing. how this entire area is quiet but peaceful (in contrast to quiet but eerie).
ahh. contentment of the moment. let me savor this realisation before my entire life is taken over in the next few months.
not to mention, my room needs major cleanup. i have this feeling the whole room is going to transform into an Art studio pretty soon. sighs.
i am so tempted to take a nap. see ya later, alligator^.
oh, seeing Dan again this saturday! yeay! :D
Adam Levine rocks. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:31 PM on
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
wassup^.
lunch blognote. received a happy news: to choreograph an eurasian wedding dance with infusions of hip hop. hurrah. i am not complaining. i just have like, nothing else to do, so this is such a good drop-in. okay, i am whining, but that could be because i need sleep- totally wiped myself out last night.
i want to grocery shop again. i think it is becoming a bigger thing (givemeabetterwordpls) in my everyday living now. :) wee hee. but i have to wait out before i restock supplies.
i finished the Nicole Richie book already. i think it is very Sweet Valley High, only much worst- and so glammed up. nice pictures, pretty nicole, a fair plot and an okay attempt. i want to check out madonna's book (all series)- let's compare. glammed up elderly does it better or the glammed up chick.
and i am looking out for the final installment in Lemony Snickett's A series of Unfortunate Events. i think, after 12 miserable episodes, they deserve a 13th (!!!) peaceful ending with some shot at happiness. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:16 AM on
Monday, September 11, 2006
waddup kaypohs.
today i was in a disturb me and i shoot you down with a harpoon gun kinda mood. my mp3 player died on me. and i had no time to go home and take my shower before class. and these things are of pivotal importance to me, you know! *haha* evening talk was marvellous. learnt loads- uber wonderful, yes yes. but evening was not too bad. i was done with Lemony Snicket's tragic tales. Despite his sour inclination to turn everything nice into total misery, some of the things he said were pretty amusing and quite thought-provoking. like,
the wickedest people are people who don't read.
i find that really cute though it is not necessarily agreeable,yes?
today i also found out about certain situations- which had confirmed what i had predicted months ago. and they make me feel so sick, sick, sick inside.
anyhow, i am now onto The Truth about Diamonds by Nicole Richie. just curious to know if she can actually make sense in her first novel- 223 pages, quite a mean feat for a novice, yeah? i thought she should start with a children's book, like Madonna. i mean, a novel writer has to have brains yeah? oops.told you i am in a disturbmeandyougetharpooned mood. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:53 AM on
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Sunday was as smashing, if not, more productive than Saturday, I would say. And currently, just to bid my time waiting for July 7, 2007 (haha), I have been reading A Series of Unfortunate Events by the Sourpuss Lemony Snickett. Ooops. You can't blame me for saying that. I mean, who would get a thrill out of writing miserable stories about orphans who are already miserable, going through more miserable incidents and not having happy endings at the end of each installment of the entire series? Only Lemony Snicket could. He must be as sour as his stories.
Oh, of late, I have been feeling sick of eating the food I have been eating. It has come to that point where I go .. I know how this is going to taste like.. sigh. I need more exotic food. Like maybe fried grasshoppers served with chili padi, or crabs in squid ink soup. Yummy.
Okay, time to read The Penultimate Peril. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:59 AM on
Saturday, September 09, 2006
A perfectly beautiful Saturday. I woke up early, did my work, had breakfast, read my new book in the garden with a gorgeous mug of hot cocoa drink and grocery shopping..! Ah. Accomplished and chilled. :)
I can't wait for the last installment of Harry Potter. It better be less political and as it is the last of the series, I sure hope Rowling insert good doses of humor- I know that Dumbledore has died, but I hope the book will not be too full of grief. I expect: secrets, mysteries that Dumbledore withheld, grief of course, musthavehumor, war! fantastical war strategies and spells galore! And the book better be thick enough to last me for at least 3 good days of reading. Books are never thick enough for me. I bought one thick-looking one yesterday and I am already done with it. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:33 AM on
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
If let's say I were to blog here saying.. Oooh! I just came back from the most awesome party of the century! There was so much food to eat, I couldn't possibly have tasted it all! And the people! Glitz and Glamor! I was in my best party gear and in my highest stilettos, although of course, I still cannot reach the desirable 1.7m. Hehe. How does this make me sound? What is the image of me are you conjuring up in your minds? Partymonger? Night sleaze?
What if I said this... I cannot believe my solitary confinement has turned me into such an insane twerp, denying the rest of the world's connections, facing the four walls of my bedroom, conversing with myself- Blogger.com. How sad.... How do I sound here? Deprived of a life?
Or what if I said this... Damn! I was ten dollars short of buying that Espirit shirt! And it was possibly one of the nicest Espirit could ever design.- all their other shirts seem to share that spectacular similarity of shrinking in the laundry. Does that make me sound like the uber materialistic shopaholic, self-centered and all- when there is a world out there to save?
That's one thing about blogs, aint it. The words of a writer does not paint the writer's life, her principles, her attitudes towards Life in general. It portrayed her thoughts- she could be in a nonsensical, mindless, serious or ranting sorta mood. She could even be in gay mood or the rockbottom mood. But what do strangers or otherwise do when they stray across a writer's blog? One word which I suppose all of us are guilty of- judging. Thus, my disclaimer.
Ahh, enough of the political rants. Tomorrow is the most relaxed day of the week! - I hope!Haha. And then I shall troop down - march, rather, to the fair. I wonder what I can possibly hope to find at such an hour. But, I will try! Tee hee. Hope the network session is good.
No man is ever born an average man or a talented man. His efforts, or lack thereof, turns him into one or the other. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 2:29 AM on
& eating it too.
my students are my best critiques et judges. blunt and honest. just the way i like it.
in fact, when they enjoy something, they really do. when they don't, they don't. good.
the fair! had been brought forward! ah. much to my dismay. hopefully i can steal sometime before or after my network session. the time and dates, though, are so ridiculous. do they think those juveniles are the only ones with purchasing power? bah.
this solitary confinement has actually done me tons of good. i have 3/4 recovered and paid a visit back to that, realising i actually feel okay. and that whole idea made me feel really good. and at the end, that matters most. :)
is it me, or is 8 days becoming bitchier for some reason. read the one with the open letter to joaquim. that is one heck of a bitchy article.
received an sms in the afternoon which made me go sigh sigh sigh sigh. i can only hope that it is not going to spiral into the lane of worst alternatives. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:51 AM on
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
I am not entirely sure what has come over me since Monday. A 12-hour sleep! Whoa. The last time I had a 12 hour sleep was after a 3 day no sleep stint. Tsk. And then I went on a bingeing frenzy- I was constantly hungry! Eurgh. Whatever phase that my body has recently entered, I really hope it will end soon. :/
Thank goodness for the September holidays. This will be most relaxed week during work. Oh yes, the network session on Thursday. I have to bring something in to share, so that they will be able to take notes of the work I have done, and use it as some sort of an example? Feeling so lazy to go for the networking session. Not to mention the workshop in two weeks' time. *yawn*
Okay, nap time.
There are times when I wish I could just be normal for a bit Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 3:52 AM on
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Ah. After yesterday, I deserve a day out and some decent meals. Hoodie Hunt- checked~~~! Soup Spoon- CHECKED! Scrabble- checkmate! Although I personally would have preferred black over white- I do love white as well- washing though is certainly not easy, but eh.. I will try. My hoodie baby. I am quite the happy girl. :)
Now, all of that done, it's work. Thank goodness it's September holidays too. Next date to look out for! >> 9th September 2006. :D
Cheers!
Oh and I just thought of something. To that person, I just wonder.. how did you imagine to be a teachertobe from NIE and yet you have like.. the most closed mind ever? And may I suggest.. putting a paperbag over your head? Yeah, protect yourself from the dirt of the world. *shudder*
Suckaaaa. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 10:06 AM on
Saturday, September 02, 2006
The event was okay with me, I suppose. Food... urh.. sucked- or was it just me who cannot take such food- okay maybe I don't go hand in hand with roasted lamb or raw meat peppered with spices. So, I went for soups and teas and crumpets (haha) and desserts instead. The spread was amazing, yes, but it is more amazing that I cannot take it all in.
Our dance was perfect. And perfectly synchronized. And it was almost effortless because of the amount of practise we had put in. I know I thought that everyone is so overly enthusiastic but today I find the entire team effort highly commendable. It is the unbendable team spirit that is really moving. We met at least 5 hours before the event time. Spent that much time helping each other to do makeup and hair (seriously I have never had this much glitter in my hair in my lifetime). Or spraying the hair spray at people's hair this much too. Or renting our own transport to bring us there so that we arrive as a team. :)
One of my colleague's mummy helped us dress up- and she was helping me pin my clothes when she asked me, "So, mesti sudah ada boy kan?" [translation:so u surely have a boyfriend right?] In my head I went here we go, the boyfriend interview. And my straightforward answer is of course as usual- No auntie, I don't want one. The 5-second look she gave me was priceless.
Hoodie Hunt and Soup Spoon tomorrow. Oh and the Scrabble Itch to be satisfied, yes. :)
Just tell yourself that I am gone. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:07 AM on
Friday, September 01, 2006
I really don't know how I should begin this entry. Or if I should even type this entry down. Or to whom am I writing this down for? But perhaps, just to voice out my opinion. I just found out the so-called truth why my friend(ex? are we even still friends?) left us, me. It's because in their opinion, I am but a slut. Not because I sleep with guys, or I have 87349824 boyfriends (top reasons why one is called a slut) that it is so necessary to label me so. Yet if you know me well, I dislike guys/males/boys. (Sorry, you don't.) I am labelled in that manner because of the way I dress, and God knows what other so shit I did but I didnt know about? I have heard about judgemental people- people who classify others without actually knowing them and what makes them. But to actually meet a living example? Whoa mama~!
I don't know if I should say that I am offended. I should be, shouldn't I? It would have been natural. Even actual offenders would feel that way. But honestly, I am more amused. Months talking about you- truth is, we missed you amongst us. But when this truth came to light, it's like dude, you didn't even defend us in your mind. You never had faith in us. Never did treasure us. Were we even friends like we said we were? So we never forked out loose change to buy a bowl of instant noodles.. that wont make us friends? And here I am, as I was told about this truth, you know what I was thinking? Damn. How could they have pressured her so much so she turned into an impossible recluse?
So this is the kind of protection they thought they were giving? By cutting off her world away from her? None of your friends were ever perfect- they did shitty things too. But if we did mean something to you, you would fight back. Was it because it was just easier to shut off the world? Was it their say? Or yours? Ah.
And then I realised. If that is how it is to be, then so be it. We spent years asking, you spent years rejecting. At least I am proud of this- we tried. We fought and worked our ass off - even if desperately so, for what we believed in and wanted. You? You succumbed to a bag of opinions. You gave in to what they believe- perhaps you yourself did too. And if you are going to start on how I don't know the actual story? Shut it- because you are not exactly the Living Story I wish to read- you never read ours.
Thank you for the enlightenment. It made me feel blessed and proud of myself and my friends. :) Just one question though- who are you? Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:40 AM on
It certainly is difficult to be avoiding people. Ignoring them in order to take some timeout for your already taxed brains, arghh!!! I was checking my gmail when pop! his email came in. And as much as I am excited to read his message- this is rare- I clicked delete. I am proud of myself. And of course, here I am with thoughts of.. perhaps I should have just read it. Perhaps perhaps perhaps. But I told myself, if I am going to go through this at all, I should go through it til the end. I was thinking about it this morning.. in spite of the fact I do experience a certain healing element from all this fencing, it's certainly unhealthy, isnt it? *argh*
Friday alas! But of course I cannot sleep in, due to the fact that I am just so used to getting up super early for work and stuffs. Meeting the girls- whoopie! Always love this kind of Friday. Hee Hee~. :) The dance tomorrow- I certainly cannot understand why everyone is so hyped up and soOoOOoOooo overly enthusiastic about it- to the extent of discussion of accessories, hair and make up. Come on, people! Relax~~
I think it's high time for a nap! Hyuk hyuk.
Teaching is the profession that teaches the other professions. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
