At 3:21 AM on
Friday, November 24, 2006
hello. the day was good basically because it's FRIDAY! :)
yesterday, i was overcome by a really strong feeling of something. it wasn't good though, but sweet gestures by some people made it easier to live through the days.
in the morning, this boy gave me a flower which he picked up on the way to school. it was a small flower, but it touched me, thinking of how he could be thinking of me. he was shy at first, but then he gave it to me later.
in the afternoon, this boy made me a sandwich. he had insisted on making me the sandwich. it was an open bread with a face on it. totally cute. and sweet, of course. thanks, boys, you made the end of the week a really sweet one.
and thanks to the girl who visited me everyday for the past week just to tell me I love you so much. I totally appreciate that... from the bottom of my heart.
perhaps this is also His way of telling me that as much as there is hatred abound in my life, there is no lack of love; it exists everywhere, even in the smallest of gestures.
now, excuse me while i chill out. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:54 AM on
Thursday, November 23, 2006
But right now, here is my genuine cry for help;
GET ME OUT OF THIS FREAKISH NIGHTMARE RIGHT NOW!
a miracle is in order. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 1:19 AM on
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
waddup.
life is pretty much warped of late. i have become a scarily organized planner. although planning is better than procrastinating any time of the day, it is still a painful process. i have also become a worrywart. therefore, the combination is fatal.
my views on certain matters have also altered greatly, regularly taking helicopter perceptions. for instance, my perfect idea of gourmet now is cadbury sandwiched between two pieces of Lays. beautiful sandwich, also subtly known as open self-sabotage. heh.
i embrace East-Asianism for now. *winks.
and i am perhaps more open about airing certain views now, although a good 99.98% of me is still a gray area. ;)
you see, circumstances in Life may change your views and perceptions on people and issues. but the person inside never really change much. in my opinion, the person that never changes and learn is in an even more sorrier state than the one who does, as per the adaptation theory. worst, the person who judges before knowing is ever more so pathetic. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 9:43 PM on
Friday, November 10, 2006
it feels a little weird, being free and not worrying too much. basically 2/3 of my workload is already completed, and today was the last day with my mentor. i was feeling sad when i said goodbye- he was one inspiring guy full of humor and a really darn understanding guy. the liberating sensation afterwards however, was ... FOOOOHHHH! :) spent a good deal of time @ borders and chilling out at bk, buried in a book.
two beautiful things of the day so far;
1) a completely enriching Saturday morning
2) me. Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 6:45 AM on
Monday, November 06, 2006
i am not the type to actually be stressed; even though i may say that word sometimes, i dont actually feel it because someway somehow i know i can get through it. but this particular instance- yes, i am stressed.
poetry exams are next week. and it is difficult to deliver a Death-themed poem without putting myself in the position of the speaker. today, during informal assessment, though all my classmates thought i did great, my lecturer seemed to think i have lost it. you cant blame me, i cannot be carrying this burdensome depression around me all the time. he told me, in order to pull this poem off, it will have to take a lot out of me; and i know exactly what he meant.
it wouldnt be difficult to do so, if it were a few years ago. but i am just way numbed for these sort of emotions already. in fact, i see these emotions as things i can put aside and get over with in due time and if i try hard enough (and inevitability plays a strong role too). so, in order to score in my exams, i will have to summon the terrible memories of the past.
............
As an aside, i just find it pathetic when a girl asks forgiveness from her friend and expects to get that forgiveness JUST BECAUSE she asks it (like what the heck, big deal!). it becomes even more pathetic when she doesnt get that forgiveness she was seeking for and, right on the very spot, called the unforgiving girl a bitch. the idea here is that this girl probably wasnt sincere in the first place. if the sincerity was unquestionable, no matter how hard a time the other girl was giving to this girl, she would definitely take it-since it was her mistake after all. saying sorry and then expecting a miraculous turnabout is just way out of the question.
know why you are saying sorry and.... mean it.
...........
Back to the main story, the two beautiful things in my day were;
1) When A-Rui hugged me.
2) Handing up that 90 page individual portfolio, like, FINALLY!!!! Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:49 AM on
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Just felt like it. =)
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
At 7:14 AM on
poor Hugh. poor poor poooooor Hugh.Ridiculousness!
it strikes me as amusing whenever my sister said she is sorry and then getting frustrated when i cannot be bothered to entertain the entire drama. it makes me wonder- was she sorry in the first place, just because i was being difficult? i have no idea. *winks*
human behaviors continue to be unfathomably amusing. that aside, i watched The Prestige today. it makes good literature; sadistic, full of ironies and underlying meanings are all abundant in this aristocratic-like English society. oh so John Donne. i found the movie quite disturbing. but all in all, it is good, plot-wise. none of that mambo jambo speed up to the climax and then throwing wet blankets on the show. thank goodness.
Two beautiful things of the day;
1) Hugh Jackman .. *hehehe*
2) Hugh Jackman.. *hehehe*
HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH!!! Love,
Lady under the Invisibility Cloak*
